To Love and Lost

Kentrel ending

DAY OF GRADUATION
I looked at myself in the mirror I haven't been the same since queen death you could say I was falling apart my dad, mom, and siblings where trying to help me but nothing I even tried to go talk to queen dad but nothing I was in deep thought thinking if I deserved this I held a piece of paper that was post to be the speech for graduation queen was post to do this now she not here -FLASH BACK- it was on the news that a young teen had died, the next morning they held a ceremony for queen they had flowers at her locker and letters people came up to speak Angela went up and talked I was zoned out I felt like I was going to collapse I got up and left I heard whispers and gasp these people hardly knew queen when I was the one that felt her pain the most I went to her locker and saw the picture they had of her it was picture day and she was so excited about It I took my keys and left the school. The next day they called and asked if I could do the acceptance speech for graduation since me and queen was in the same position I agreed and hung up. -FLASH BACK OVER- I fixed my tie and left, I was in front of the trap just sitting there I decided to go in and say something I went in and saw everybody working ''aye I need y'all attention'' I said '' I'm done with this I can't do this anymore I have other things to worry about we came along way and I get that but I'm in a bad position right now so I'm done'' I told them one of the guys came up to me and hugged me ''do what you got to do man we get it'' he said then everybody agreed I smiled and left to go to graduation. I was parked in the parking lot in the car smoking when I heard a knock on my car window I looked up and saw Ang, Durian and the twins I rolled down the window and looked at them they smiled at me ''it' going to be ok'' Ang told me ''yeah kentrel we have to pull through this together'' he said holding his hand out I looked at the twins and they where smiling at me I rolled my window up and opened my door and go out ''maybe your right maybe it's time to let go'' I said low they all came up to me and hugged me and started to laugh I laughed to ''let's go in'' I said but I was stopped by queen dad calling me over to him I told them I would be inside in a minute and they left ''well you look presentable'' he said with a small smile ''I'm so sorry I couldn't help I should've'' I stopped when he put his hand up ''stop apologizing ken anyway it went queen was going to die and we couldn't do nothing about it'' he sat down and so did I ''I always thought of you as a son I still do there wouldn't be a person in the world queen wouldn't have you by her side and the fact that she died in your arms she must of felt safe'' he told me I was silent ''here'' he said giving me a box and a letter ''kentrel I forgive you so stop worrying go out there and be apart of what queen was going to be do it for me your family your friends especially do it for queen'' he said leaving I looked at the letter and opened it and I started to read it ''to kentrel my first everything I loved you and I knew you loved me also I'm writing this because well I'm dead but far from that I want to tell you that you need to move on become your own person without me we been together since we where little so I know it's going to be hard living without me but you have everyone else on your side and I want you to know that I'll always be by your side no matter what take care kentrel and I hope to see you again in a different place love you always'' It read I didn't know I was crying until I saw my tear drop on the paper I wiped my face and opened it I wanted to break down in the box was a pregnancy test and it was positive queen was pregnant I thought I looked through it and saw notes and a book with a bunch of writing in it I saw a photo of us and I smiled at it I closed the box and put it in my car ''time to go in there'' I said fixing myself up and going in. it was time for my acceptance speech and I was nervous I saw all my friends even my ex I saw my daughter and smiled at her ''what can I say'' I said In the mic I looked at the paper I stayed up and wrote I balled it up ''I had wrote a speech but the reason why I stayed up and wrote it was because I wanted it to be perfect just like a friend of mines'' I looked back at two empty seats and looked back at the crowd ''I want to say that everyone here has been through something from madness, happiness, or depression and all I can say is that me and my friend been through it all not to long ago I watched someone close to me be buried in the ground I saw myself in a place of darkness with no light I was stuck not knowing what to do because she was my light through everything and now that she was gone I didn't know what happiness or light was I was in my room trying to pull through I look around and see that we worked hard to be here and now I'm the only one that' living her dream'' I took a deep breath ''we are the class of emotions and determination if we wanted it we got it and I hope that everyone can have a better life from this year and on thank you'' I said everybody clapped and cheered. We where outside taking picture when I saw my friends come my way ''nice speech'' Ang said and Durian agreed I saw everyone we talked to during high school come up to me and shake my hand we laughed and talked ''well let's just make a promise and never lose each other how bout that'' Ang said we agreed and hugged and for a quick second I saw Mark, Queen and her mother standing in the door way smiling at me and giving me a thumbs up before turning around leaving and disappearing into the light I smiled and had shed a tear ''this is a new life let's make the most of it'' I told them we agreed and left I looked back at where I saw them and smiled and went back to everyone.