To Love and Lost

Kentrel Pov

When I came out the bathroom I heard so much going on I ran out and when I did I wish I never did I saw Draya and Bianca there I could tell Bianca didn't mean to do this but she did text me earlier saying that Draya wanted to see me and I ignored it and I shouldn't have I looked over at Queen and I saw so much sadness in her eyes I felt so bad I didn't want to hurt her like this I heard Draya call me and when I saw her I instantly smiled at her and picked her up and gave her a kiss I looked at queen and all I saw was hurt I knew she wasn't going to forgive me and the fact that she asked me if I was hiding anything I told her no and here I am with my daughter in my arms I tried to go to her but instead I heard shooting going on I put Draya down and told Bianca to got to the back I saw Mark run to the front with his gun I knew he would handle it so I went to find Queen everybody was screaming and yelling I saw the twins and Durian running to back ''Emory Emilia'' I ran to them I saw that Emilia got hurt really badly ''did you fall'' I asked her she shook her head and turn to where she saw Queen I told them to go and I'll catch up with them the more I came close to Queen screams and cries where getting louder I then heard someone telling her to get up I instantly knew it was Ang I came closer and when I did I saw queen holding a body crying the shooting had stop and when I got closer I saw who it was I felt like my world was crumbling to my feet I couldn't speak I wanted to throw up I saw that queen was crying her eyes out everybody was trying to get her away from the body I then saw Durian and the twins come out I saw Emilia run over and she started crying hard she ran to the body and held it I couldn't do anything I was scared what was I post to do my sister, my friends, my girlfriend at that was crying hard while I just stood there I went to the body and pulled him close to me I felt tears down my face how could I be so stupid ''YOU IDIOT WHY WULD YOU RUN UP THERE'' I yelled out I was on the ground crying as I watch my best friend lay in my arms die ''MARK'' I yelled out I saw that he had something sticking out of his pocket I reached in it and pulled out the paper and saw that it was crumbled up I then opened it up and read it ''your dead and so is that family of yours watch your back and your friend to'' I baled it up and threw it I looked over at the dead body and ran to it holding him by his collar and yelling at him ''YOU STUPID FUCK YOU KEPT THAT LETTER FROM ME KNOWING I WAS GOING TO TRY AND KEEP YOU SAFE YOU BASTARD'' I yelled people where now looking at me with an expression that tells that they felt sorry for me I didn't care I was ready to kill everybody the boys were pulling me off of Mark ''STOP THAT'S MY BESTFRIEND LET ME GO'' I yelled out as they pulled me back I looked up and saw Queen Ang and Emilia crying harder than me queen had blood all over her and Emilia also this was going to be the day that was suppose to be queen day a happy day but instead this day was full of tears and blood I loosen the grip that they had of me ''LET ME GO I WANNA GO TO MY GIRLFRIEND'' I yelled out and they let me go I tried running to Queen but things took a turn ''NO NO LEAVE ME ALONE THIS ALL YOU KENTREL ARE YOU SERIOUS THI IS DEAD MY FRIEND YOUR FRIEND OUR FUCKING FRIEND IS DEAD YOU HAVE A FUCKING CHILD THAT I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT I FUCKING ASKED YOU IF YOUWAS HIDING SHIT YOU SAID NO DID I NOT ASK YOU THE OTHER NIGHT'' she yelled crying she slapped me so hard that I stumbled back a little I couldn't do anything cause I knew I was in the wrong ''I FUCKING ASKED YOU AND YOU LIED TO ME I WANTED TO BE THE FIRST TO HAVE YOUR CHILD I WANTED TO BE THE FIRST I KNEW THIS WAS A BAD IDEA'' she yelled at me I instantly knew what she was going to say next I got up and ran to her to only be stopped by Emory and Durian ''it's over kentrel I'm done with your lies'' she said calming down with tears in her face and mine I was heart broken I was devastated I wanted to go and hold her ''let me go LET GO'' I yelled they wouldn't I saw queen and my parents come out  I saw her dad and I guess she did to cause she ran to him the fact that he told me to tell queen at one point and I never did I saw my mom and my dad came up to me and grabbed me to leave and I just didn't want to I wanted to be next to queen ''come on son we need to go now'' my dad said I wanted to be next to queen so bad ''I WANT MY GIRLFRIEND QUEEN PLEASE DON'T DO THIS I KNOW I FUCKED BUT PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME I'M BEGGIN YOU'' I yelled she turned around and left to go home I cried I just lost the one person I could ever go to my bestfriend, my girlfriend, my FIRST LOVE at that I fucked up everything because I lied. After hours I was in shock and I lost the two important people I cared for I was in bed 2 days later since the incident happened I tried contacting queen through everything but I blocked I was heartbroken I lost my bestfriend and I lost my girlfriend and a friend I went out of my room to see everybody watching the news ''just two days ago we lost a young man during a shoot out we are here with the family now and to ask them question'' the news reporter said going to the family I looked and saw that it was his momma to be honest she was like a mother to me she was nice and caring I would be over there so much and I ruined her life now her son is dead because of me I saw that she was crying which made me start crying ''I'm upset that I wasn't there to keep my son safe he died out there and I just don't know what to do I'm hurting my family is hurting now I have to watch my son go six feet under a mother shouldn't bury there child'' she said I was now fully blown crying my family ran to me everybody but Emilia and my dad Durian put a hand on my shoulder my mom held me and Emory was behind her I felt like Emilia hated me because she knew that the game was dangerous and that I couldn't protect him I got up and ran to my room throwing on clothes a nd running out the house I heard them yell my name but I need to go. I was now in front of the door that would either tell me if I deserved to be forgiven or not I was out of breath I wanted to pass out right now I knocked o the door hysterically and waited I saw Mark mom open the door she gave me a look and hugged me telling me that she forgave me she knew me and mark was in the trap life but when he told her she didn't like it all mark cared about was keeping his family safe and now he's dead I cried in her arms ''he's in a better place ken I forgive you I want you to know that we all now how mark cared for family and his friends he died doing something that he wanted to do if he was alive he would tell us that he is alright'' she said holding me. I was walking home and I stumbled on an area that we use to go to I stopped and looked, looking over to the playground that we once fought at we where only seven and I was still beating his ass I smirked and decided to sit down there and just take in the life that I had planted myself in I thought about everything I pulled my phone out and texted Bianca to see if I could come over and she said yeah. I was now in Draya room watching her sleep ''hey do you wanna talk'' Bianca said I said no and that all I wanted to do was stay with Draya and leave she said ok and went to her room and closed the door I looked back over to Draya I felt tears and I started to slide down the wall I had my knees pulled up to my face and cried I then felt someone beside me ''here'' she said giving me a tissue I took it and she grabbed my head and put it in her lap and started to play in my hair I then fell asleep.