To Love and Lost

Kentrel pov

A MONTH  LATER
Me, Queen, and Angela was at the front office getting ready to take our senior pictures and give them a picture so that they can use in the yearbook ''damn I can't believe it in three more  months we will be done with this shit hole called school ready to go out in the world and party'' Angela said twerking we laughed at her, I looked around and saw all the senior I can't believe it we are literally going to leave this place ''I told y'all that they want me to do the speech for graduation'' she said getting all happy ''oh come on queen we all knew you was going to do it lets face the fact your where class president, you're the captain of the cheerleading team and y'all use to hang out with seniors and last for not least your going to be queen for prom'' Angela said ''I know but this is big this is something I always wanted when I started high school'' queen said this was something she wanted to do this for so long and she is this girl was valedictorian for heaven sake she was bound to be doing speech ''that's good I mean look at us'' I said swinging my arms around Angela and Queen necks ''where the most known group in this school nobody would ever mess with us'' I said with a huge grin on my face ''yeah we going to be front and back in the yearbook'' Angela said being loud we laughed ''IS THERE A CARTER AND MANNING'' the lady that was taking our pictures ''yes that's us'' I grabbed queen hand and we went up there to take the pictures ''wait Angela come on and stop standing around'' Queen said ''shit don't got to tell me twice'' she squeezed in and we were laughing and we where so busy laughing  the lady took the pictures ''next'' we laughed and got up and left. ''MY MAN'' mark said coming over to me ''why are you yelling'' I asked him making my face up ''cause in three months where out of here'' he said dapping me up I nodded and went into class ''so there's this party I was thinking we hit up tonight'' I looked at him and shook my head no ''why not'' he said scrunching up his face ''cause I don't wanna go what happens if something happen'' I told him ''well I'm just saying It would be fun I miss my bro that was fun'' he said sitting back in his seat I thought about it and fuck it might as well party one last time ''ok I'm in but this one time'' I told him ''HELL YEAH'' he yelled out and everybody was looking at him ''Mr. Waters detention after school'' the teacher said without even turning around I laughed at his dumbass. I was driving Queen home when I received a text from one of the niggas from the trap I looked at it and huffed ''what's wrong'' Queen asked me I held her hand ''nothing just tired that's all'' she said ok and looked out the window the last thing I need for her to know that I'm in the middle of a war with some knew niggas and the reason why I sent them to a hotel for three days because they where watching us so I had to think of something, we arrived to her house and she kissed my cheek and before she got out I grabbed her arm and kissed her I don't know who she think she is giving me these bird peck kisses I let go and she was just looking at me with lust in her eyes I laughed at her and she left, I went to the trap and when I arrived these niggas had some of the hoes at gun point so I looked at them ''so what did y'all do to get in this predicament'' I said bending down to there level ''w-we didn't d-do anything'' one said crying I looked up at one of the dudes ''they had this in there bags today since we found out someone was taking money from you'' he said through there duffle bag at me and it was full of money I laughed and grabbed my gun pistol whipping the girl ''SO Y'ALL TAKE MONEY FROM ME WHEN I HELP Y'ALL BITCHES SO WHO ELSE BEEN TAKING MY SHIT'' I yelled at them they brought up two girls I laughed at them ''any last words'' I said pointing the gun at them ''he told us if we didn't do it he would kill our family'' one of the girls said crying I put my gun down and walked up to them, they where shaking and crying but I didn't care ''so he told y'all to do this'' they shook there head yes ''you know where they are'' they said yes and I came up with a good idea ''I won't kill y'all if you help us get them'' I said they agreed and I told everyone the plan. I was getting home when I saw my mom sitting on the couch I rolled my eyes and kept walking she got up followed me ''wait kentrel let's talk please'' she said I turned around and mugged her ''why'' I said she looked confuse ''why do what you do you come and you up and leave you get pregnant by people you don't even know YOU HAD CHILDREN WHEN YOU LEFT ME AND YOU WANT ME TO TALK TO YOU'' I yelled at her she stepped back and started to cry ''I thought so just leave like you always do'' I said before going in my room I closed the door and laid down. Five minutes passed by and I heard a knock at my door I thought it was dad so I said the door was unlocked I turned around and it wasn't my dad it was my mom I huffed and turned around ''I get how you feel kentrel, but I need you to understand that I left because I couldn't do it I was scared'' she said ''so you left you didn't think I needed you when I wanted you the most I wanted my mother here with me but instead you was out somewhere pregnant being happy with someone else'' I told her ''there wasn't a day that passed by when I didn't think of you kentrel I wanted to come bac-'' before she finished her sentence I couldn't hold it in any longer ''THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU'' I yelled ''CAUSE EVERYTIME I THOUGHT ABOUT IT I KNEW YOU HATED ME JUST LIKE RIGHT NOW'' she yelled at this point me and her had tears streaming down our face ''I wanted to come back so bad but I was scared you would hate me and not want nothing to do with me'' she said crying,  thought what queen told me one day at some point I need to forgive and forget I took a breath and got up and went to her side and hugged her she was caught off guard for a moment but hugged me back instantly hugged back a cried I think this is what we both needed ''I forgive you'' I said ''and I'm so sorry'' she said we where there just hugging for the longest with tears in my eyes my phone ringed and I saw it was mark oh shit the party I broke the hug and turned around and saw my dad leaning on the door with a grin he set this up I see. I was at the party drinking when I seen mark dancing with some girl this nigga was a hoe forreal how you want my sister but dancing with someone else I shook my head then I felt a tap on my shoulders so I turned around I was surprised to see it was Bianca so I got up and hugged her ''hey it's been so long I haven't seen you'' she said I agreed with her and we sat down ''so why you here'' I asked her ''my cousin invited me she said I need to get out'' she said laughing and before I could say anything I heard a familiar voice ''girl I was looking for you'' I turned around and saw it was Yvette my eyes almost popped out of they socket I turned to look at Bianca ''wait y'all cousin'' I said getting up, Bianca shook her head yeah and for a minute I was about to leave I was literally in front of the girls I use to fuck with I haven't seen Yvette In so long after me and her broke I haven't heard from her ''how you been'' I asked her ''I been ok'' she said looking down ''wait you know him'' Bianca said ''yeah we use to go out'' Yvette said Bianca was  shaking her head ''can I talk to you real quick'' she asked Yvette she said ok and left there was a pit in my stomach and I felt like I wanted to puke ''YOU MADE IT NIGGA'' mark said coming up to me ''yeah but I'm going to leave'' I told him ''why'' he said I didn't answer I was so busy looking at a crying Bianca, I went over to her ''what's wrong'' I asked ''tell him B'' Yvette said in my head I was like tell me what before she could speak gun shots were heard I grabbed Bianca and Yvette and ran them to the outside ''mark take Yvette home now'' I told him I put Bianca in my car and decided to take her to my place ''you can just carrying me home you know'' she said ''so what did you have to tell me back there'' I asked she took a deep breath while picking her finger nails ''so you remember when we had sex before I left'' she asked still looking down I shook my head yeah ''well later on I was having some real bad symptoms'' i was wondering when she was going to get to the point there was still that feeling in my stomach ''I found out I was pregnant'' she said I hit the brakes so hard we could've flew out of the car ''what'' I said ''I was pregnant I never got an abortion cause that's not what I wanted and I never told you because I was scared you didn't want her'' she said with tear scrolling down her face I ran my hands down my face and blew out a breath I have a child I thought I have a fucking child with someone I don't even fuck with anymore we sat there before I said anything ''can I see her'' I asked I'm not gonna lie knowing I have a child is going to be a handful and Queen oh my gosh I would have to tell her but right now I need to know about my daughter ''I guess you can you can see her tomorrow if you want'' she said I shook my head yeah and starting the car and going to my house. It was late and I needed to sneak Bianca in my room before my dad or anyone saw her I was able to sneak her in, when she got in I closed the door and blew out a breath of relief ''so you cheating'' my dad said ''no I'm not'' I told him going around him so I could go in the kitchen ''so why is that girl in my house if you not cheating'' he asked following me ''cause she's drunk and were friends that's all'' I told him sitting down ''can I ask you something'' I said looking down at my hands he sat down and said yeah ''so the girl in there told me that she's pregnant'' I told him he just looked at me and said nothing ''and the baby is mine and she's one'' he said nothing he got up and went to the sink ''I'm dissapointed in you kentrel you got someone pregnant and you didn't know about it and not only do you have a child but your with queen did you think how she would feel that her boyfriend has a child by someone else'' he said I could tell that he was mad but I didn't know ''this is a situation you need to handle but I can't help you sorry'' he said leaving I'm so dead.