3 Messages From: Mom
Mom: Hey (10:45 pm)
Mom: It is been two days since we last talked. I am worried. (10:45 pm)
Mom: Are you alright? (11:23 pm)
07:32 a.m
I am fed up with waking up this early.
I sigh, remembering my dream.
I feel the longing again. Not as strong as before, since I know I can see him by drifting to sleep. But I can't get enough of him, and I am suprised I am not freaked out about the weird coincidences, time travel thing and still unanswered questions.
If I tell anyone about this, they will probably never talk to me again.
I yawn, staring at his empty bed.
It feels weird to be with him in Abu Dhabi in my sleep, and then waking up to an empty room.
"Oh God.." I say to myself.
"I don't know what I am going through, but please make it a good one."
***
.....
"Yeah mom, sorry for worrying you. I am fine."
"Okay, I love you."
"Love you too."
I hang up the phone, popping my gum.
It humbles my heart for a second, as I remember the scent of the strawberry gum in Grayson's mouth.
I can't believe it is really him.
I put my phone in my pocket and walk down the street, and I notice that I am smiling like stupid.
I laugh at myself, and wonder..
Is this really my fate, or some kind of message that universe is sending me.
I don't know the answer yet. I don't know if I ever will. But I know one thing. And it is that, being with him once again is wonderful. And being delisuonal, never felt more amazing.
***
"Are you really Ethan?"
Leo asks me in shock and gigling.
"Okay I am taking it back."
"No no!!! I just.. never thought you would actually say sorry.."
I roll my eyes.
Aiko watches me carefully and sighs. "I think it is not Ethan."
"Guys he said sorry for ruining the camp, just appraciate it and shut up or else you will never be able to hear it." Mia says, looking at me and smiling.
Cali nights,
Summer weather,
Crowded city,
Laughing people,
Kissing couples.
I stare at my drink, I never drink alcohol. So while everyone takes shots after shots, I just simply sit on my butt while drinking fruit cup.
I stare at my friends; Aiko, Leo and Mia.
They sit together while I am sitting across them.
I glance at the empty seat near me.
And I look at my laughing (god knows to what) friends.
And I notice this is the first time I am not complaining about something, punch someone or just leave like I have things to do.
Also, I am not crying for two days.
I sigh, drinking my drink.
I wonder, wonder and wonder..
I wonder how it would be like to be with him now.
There is always a missing part, even when everything is beautiful.
