11:33 a.m
I wake up with all the emotions that I am afraid of.
I hold my chest, trying to calm myself.
He was so close to me.
We were so close..
So..
Close..
I rub my eyes, looking around me.
What is happening.. What is happening..
His voice is everywhere.
"You got me frozen
Colder than ice
Do you love me?
Tell another lie"
***
05:23 p.m
"Look, I am sorry for yelling at you, okay? I don't feel good.."
I feel so good.
"Ethan, you don't understand that it is dangerous, okay? I told you to take it serious. Things can get complicated more than ever."
Mia tells me through the phone.
I close my door, taking another bite from my slice of pizza.
"Listen, I have nightmares sometimes. Everything is okay. I just need to relax and clear my mind."
"My life is a party, my home is the club, I party like a rock star.."
I frown my brows as I hear the lyrics coming from her.
"What the fuck are you listening?"
She giggles, turning down the volume.
"It is not our topic. Ethan, you are going to get in trouble okay? It should have been something like 'one night' thing."
I look at my sleeping pills. I can't help but smile. I can be with him.
"You are over reacting. It is okay."
I know, I feel.
Things are happening way more different from the way it should be.
My eyes find another picture of me and him.
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I can't help but smile. I just can't wait to go to sleep.
I can't get sleep through all the fantasies coming..
"Ethan, you can be hypnotized."
"What?"
Hypnotized?
"Yes. I am telling you it is not safe. We have to do something."
I hold the small bottle of sleeping pills.
"I think I am fine."
