Everything feels unreal, all the time. I always find myself asking questions. But I never seek for the answers.
It burns
It really burns..
Birds singing. Hot sand. Waves. Soft wind. Burning sun.
You are alright, Grayson. You are alright.
***
I open my eyes, gasping for air.
I feel kind of dizzy.
Deja Vu.
Nice weather.
Nice sounds.
No sobbing. No screaming.
"Want some Sprite?"
Popping sound, gulping.
Thousand times of deja vu.
Replaying all the same things.
"You are calm."
My body feels warm. Everything is so nice like it used to be. Grayson is calm. He is drinking his Sprite, looking around in a relaxed mood.
"Yeah, sorry."
I look up to the sky. There are still some clouds. But the sun is burning me. It is burning us. We are here. We are not screaming.
No lightning.
Nothing.
"I told you to calm down."
"I am now."
I sigh, looking around just like him.
Waves are so pretty. Ocean is shining lika a diamond with the sunlight.
I wonder why is it always day?
I wonder. I wonder.
I wonder..
"Do you feel like talking about it now?" I ask him, straightening up myself. My back hurts.
I try not to show how concerned I was. I always forget that it is a dream. He is fine. I am so happy he is fine.
It is always so hard for me to act like nothing happened.
He was screaming.
Everything was like a nightmare.
"I don't care"
He says, not looking at me. His tanned body is laying under the beautiful sun. His Sprite is standing right next to him.
I look at his rope mark again.
I gulp.
"What do you mean you don't care? Why the fuck did you get angry then?"
He chuckles, closing his eyes, probably listening the waves.
"It means I don't care"
"We have to talk about it"
"No we don't"
"Grayson, yes we do.."
"Okay,"
What the..
"Open your eyes and look at me then."
He stays still. I am going insane. How.. How can he be this calm..
He was like a thunderstorm in a human shape.
Why is he being an idiot all of a sudden?
"I am listening to you."
