Reality Hit Me [COMPLETED]

Prologue

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Have you ever once called a place that looks like a paradise?

Have you ever wish to be stuck on a place that makes you calm and contented?

Have you ever wish to be trapped in a place with someone you loved?

Have you ever felt so much love whenever you are going in that place?

Have you ever tried not to go somewhere because you are afraid that the favorite place right now will suddenly vanished?

Have you ever wished that time will stopped and let you stuck to that place?

"Sometimes the place that once became our favorite will be the place who will hurt us"

Sometimes if the person, thing,  place or whatsoever that makes us felt like home will be the reason of us--being broke.

It was so hard to got attached on a thing, person, place.

Why?

Because it will made you think if they will stay or they will just let you hanging.

Sometimes it is so hard to love a person that is still inlove to the person that first came in his heart.

Sometimes it made you regret in every choices you are not sure if you choosed well.

Sometimes the place that make us see the Paradise will make us see the different kind of hell.

Was it regretting if you already found the purpose of a thing that you used to do and love?

Will you ever still wished to be stuck on the place where you used to go if you already found the purpose of it?

Will you still saw the Paradise in the place you used to be in there whenever you felt so down if it will be the one who will hurt and make you suffer every day?

Are you willing to let those memories that you created with a person you love if it's hurting you so bad?

Are you willing not to go in the place you treated as a paradise if it's meant to broke your broken heart?

Are you willing not to pick every pieces of your heart if it's mean going back to that place?

Will you ever still look and go back to that place if it's once broke you?

Because if it's yes, you are saying that you are willing to comeback to the things who broke you.

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It was all started with that beautiful and calm place.

It was all started with that.

In that place, we had our first conversation.

In that place I saw the glimpse of his smile,

In that place, we did shared our first laughters

A laughters that once my favorite.

In that place we both smiled to each other.

A smile that makes my heart melts.

In that place, we had our first kiss.

A kiss that marks on my mind for a long time.

In that place, he saw how weak I am.

A weakness that only him who sees it.

In that place, he did see the loneliness and sadness in my eyes.

The favorite part of our lovestory.

In that place, he never judged me whenever he see me crying.

In that place, I let my self cry because I knew that he was always been there.

In that place, we had our first fight.

In that place, we shared different funny jokes or should I say corny jokes?

In that place, I saw how vulnerable he was.

In that place, he confess to me.

In that place, he asked me if I have a feelings for him.

In that place, he asked me if I have a chance on him.

In that place, I said 'Yes,I am now your girlfriend.'

In that place, we say 'Iloveyou.' for the first time.

And I didn't expect that,

In the same place where our all 'first' things happens, will be the place where it all ends.

In that place we ended all the things we used to do.

Lastly,

That place witnessed how he broke up with me.

And choose the girl who own he's heart first.

And here I am thinking and wondering why he didn't choose me.

Wondering why he choose to hurt me in the place that is so important for me.

For us.

In that place, I first saw, like, attract and even love him so much.

In that place, we created a memories that will surely tattoed on our heart's string.

In that place, he promise that he will never leave me.

In that place,  we talked different kinds of topic that could make us happy and contented.

But

Why does the beautiful and calm place could hurt me like this?

Why does it painful to go back in the place where I find peace back then?

Why does the place I once loved will be the reason of me--hurting?

Why does it's hurt so bad whenever I am seeing that place?

Why did he did that?

Why does the place who I always find an answer will be the place that could make me confuse and left me hanging with an unanswered questions?

Why does people come in our life if they are meant to go in the end?

Why does people would make you felt home if they are the one who'll leave you?

Why does people choose to break your heart for the sake of someone else?

Why does there is so many unsaid thoughts in our mind?

Why does we always need to be hurt like this?

Why does we can't pick every pieces of our heart in our own?

Why does our heart got easily break?

Why does we always need someone to fix our every pieces?

In the place where I felt different kind of emotions,

Was now a place that made me felt the worst nightmare I ever had.

In that place,

We separated and choose our different paths.

Our paths that will never cross again.

A very painful yet satisfying path we both choose.

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