Reality Hit Me [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER 48!- EXPLANATION

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Matapos ang reunion namin, I decided to go home. May date kasi kami bukas ni Kleobabe.
Sa paglalakad ko papunta sa bahay, ang minsang lugar na naging paborito ko ay hinihila ako para mapunta muli sa lugar na yun, so I did. Dahan dahan akong naglakad papunta roon. It's already 5:23 in the afternoon, medyo masinag pa ang araw.Mag papalipas muna siguro ako dito ng sunset.

Naupo ako sa dati kong pwesto. Habang inaalala ang kasal namin ni Kleobabe. Can't wait to walk on the church, while he's waiting for me on the aisle. Napangiti ako ng lumabas ang pigura naming dalawa na nag iisang dibdib sa harap ng taong mahal na mahal namin. Si Kleo at Dad ay sobrang magkasundo, parang yung Mommy nya and my Mom.

I was smiling widely when the sun was slowly falling down.

"How I wish I was still the one who you'd thinking while looking at the sun when it's slowly falling down." the smile on my lips suddenly faded when I heared his voice, he sat beside me. Gumilid ako ng kaunti, he smiled bitterly.

"Ey, what's up,dude?" I casually asked him, mas dumoble ang pait sa pagkakangiti nya.

"Heartbroken pa din." sambit nito at nagkibit balikat, tumango nalang ako at hindi na nagtanong.

Lumipas ang sampung minuto when he started to talk again.

"If I have only choice that time...I will always choose you..but s-she needs me more." agad nagtubig ang mata nya.

"Hindi mo ba inisip na kailangan din kita?" diniinan ko ang huling salitang binigkas ko.

"I knew you'd answer that..It made me think, but just like what I've said...she needs me..more t-than you need me." his voice cracked.

"Mind if I explains why did I left you hangin' on?" paalam nya, I want closure bago ako makasal so I nodded.

"She cameback..not because she still love me..but because she needs me. Lahat ng narinig mo na pagmamakaawa n-nya sakin..it was all scripted..kahit yung mga masasakit na salitang sinabi ko sayo...But the part that I did c-choose her,was not." sambit nito, tumango lang ako at sinabing magpatuloy sya, "His boyfriend died.." nagulat ako sa sinabi nya, tang ina lang.

"Oh my gosh." salitang paulit ulit na sinasabi ko.

"Ulila na din sya.. we are childhood friends..yet lovers at the same time..I've never wanted to hurt her...I'm so inlove with her, nung ka pa dumating sa buhay ko.Sobrang nadepressed sya when her mom and his dad both died..I-i p-promise to myself not to open this topic to anyone else,b-because i-if I did say it to y-you, I-i know t-that you will let me go in just a single snap." kaya pala sobrang lungkot ng mga mata nya nung una kong nakita si Camilla. Is she okay?

"S-sobrang mahal nya yung boyfriend n-nya..to the point that I s-saw her almost d-died too. She tried to commit suicide, hanggang sa napagpasyahan ko na s-samahan sya..even it last forever..ganun k-ko sya kamahal..not in a romantic w-way,b-but as a sister..I d-did do everything to push you away,until you get tired for me..til' you get tired for waiting." his eyes fall, naiiyak na din ako.

"Oh my gosh." yan nalang ang sinasabi ko sa bawat salitang binibigkas nya.

"One time..sabi nya, she want us to gave a try, to easily move on by being a lovers again..but I'm so inlove with you t-that time..I said no, palagi lang akong nasa tabi nya, baka k-kasi itry nya ulit kitilin ang buhay nya...I don't want to lose a sister..nung dumating sya at bumalik ulit, pinuntahan na nya ako sa bahay nun..she needs me so much, and as a respectful brother and ex of her or even bestfriend, I choose her..because she badly needs me,Kyrill...Habang nanlalamig ako sayo,merong taong gustong gusto ng atensyon mo...so I decided to let you go, because that man was more deserving than me.." he wipe his tears. "One year did already pass, Camilla is still inlove with his ex that died because of Cancer..i-isang taon na din b-bago kita nakitang sumaya muli...until you fell inlove with that guy..and yes,love..I watch you fall inlove with the guy who's more deserving than me." sobrang sakit ng mga pinagdaanan nya.Oh my gosh.