Reality Hit Me [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER ONE!

PRETENDING!!!

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Someone ask me,

"Why do you always looking at the sky?"

I always asking my self too.

'Why am I always looking at the sky?'

Yet I didn't get any answer.

But one thing I know,

'If I'm looking at it my heart melts, it's like my day wouldn't be complete if I did not look on it.'

"Woy! tulala ka nanaman? nakatingin ka nanaman sa langit?" asked by my friend, Carmela.

"Carms? don't you appreciate the beauty of skies?" I ask her.

"Uh? ofcourse I do! pero kapag may kahanga hanga lang, look at now, the sky is plain. It's still color blue,so ano naman iaappreciate ko dyan?" mataray na sabi nya.

"Exactly! the color of the sky is still blue. You should appreciate it even it is small thing." I said and sighed. I looked up again.

"Heh! englisherist ka nanaman, kain na tayo?" she said, and I nodded.

"Kahit ang payat ko na ang ganda ko pa den, gosh!" sambit ko, ganto talaga ako self proclaimer.

"Ha?" ani nito,

"Hatdog" Pilosopong sambit ko naman, and she laughed.

"Palaman cheesedog" aba ayaw mag patalo?,Well she's Carms ano pa bang aasahan ko?

"Kalahati sunog" hindi paawat na sambit ko din.

"Atleast busog" ani nito, at nag tawanan kami.

"IloveyouDog" biglang sabi ko, she smiled,and we continued to eat.

I used to smile even I am dying inside.
I used to tell some jokes but I can't even tell what I truly feel, how unfair.

"Tara pasok na tayo!" excited na sambit ni Carms.

"Lezgo!" I said and hold her hand, we have a circle of friends but Carms is the closest to me.

"Carms! do you have any regrets meeting a girl like me?" I suddenly ask, kunot noo nya akong hinarap. She hate dramas.

"Ano nanaman bang tanong yan?! damn If I have any regrets here ay hinding hindi kita sana  nakilala,gosh! ang drama natin!" She said, and fake her laugh. Sa ganitong sitwasyon alam ko na hindi sya kumportable.

"Carms---mauna ka na sa room, I'll wash my hand first." I said at tumakbo na. Ayaw kong samahan nya ako.
Habang papalapit ng papalapit sa restroom mas kumakalam ang tyan ko, sukang suka na ako.

I felt weak.

Sobrang sakit ng dibdib ko matapos kong sumuka but I had to pretend that everything was alright. Yes,I do have to always pretend and just keep it on me.

"Uy Shiang! okay ka lang?" said by Jem, my boybestfriend. We have a circle of friends here, we are five.. Two boys and Three girls. Pero mas close ko talaga si Jem sa boys.

"Ofcourse,lol." I shortly said, he was about to say something when our English teacher suddenly appears.

"Sit down and Just Listen para madali ang discussion,alright?" He said.

"Yes Sir!" We said in chorus.

Habang nagtuturo sya tuliro lang ako sa labas, dinadamdam ang pagkirot ng dibdib ko.
Habang habol ang hininga ko, pinilit kong makinig sa aming guro, favorite subject ko kasi ito and nawiwili ako kapag nag tuturo sya, but right now all I can feel is the pain in my chest that no one knows, just me.

"Kyri Shia,are you okay?" My teacher suddenly ask, it so good when someone asking me that but damn why I can't even appreciate it?

"Y-yes ofcourse,S-sir!" I said and he nodded.

And yeah-it did strikes me. I can't appreciate it because they're just good on asking once.
Hindi na nila aalamin problema mo kapag sinabi mong 'okay ka lang' kasi nga sabi mo ayos ka lang.

Time flies so fast and our class dismissed.

"Tara Canteen! gutom na'ko" Sabi ni Jean isa sa mga kaibigan ko.

"Ge ge" sambit din ni Jem.

"Araaaaaaat!" atat na atat na pag sang ayon ni,Juneah.

"Sama ka?" biglang bulong sakin ni Carms, umiling ako.

"Nope, bilhan mo nalang ako tubig,pretty please?" I said, with pouting.

"Uh? sige! basta wait mo kami dito ah? babalik din ako promise!" she said and wink at me, they was about to go when Jem suddenly spoke.

"Bilhan mo nalang ako dude." humarap sya kay Jean, and nag bigay ng pera, kunot noo namang kinuha ni Jean yun,

"Walang kasama si Shiang, paiwan nalang ako." Sambit ni Jem and they all nodded, sanay na.

Jem is a good friend. He have a soft heart when it comes to his friend.

"Bat ka nag paiwan?" I ask, even I already know the answer.

"Uh to accompany you?" He unsurely said, kaya hinampas ko.

"Ikaw na nga sinamahan ikaw pa nanghahampas,tss" supladong ani nya, I rolled my eyes.

"Nye nye, ganda ko naman! ang kyut pa,gosh." maarteng sambit ko.

"Ganda ko naman cute pa, ganda ko naman cute pa nye nye, ganda ko naman cute pa your face!" he mocked. I laughed when he rolls his eyes, cute.

"Ha?" biro ko.

"Hatdog." sambit nya, and by that we laughed again.

While laughing I am asking my self.

Is it genuine? is my laugh is genuine? I hope yes.

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"Ey! Ey! Ey!" malakas na sigaw ni Juneah, sa palakasan ng boses kami ni Juneah ang panalo.

"Yow!" salubong ko sakanila ng dumating na sila sa pagbili.

"Para kayong mag jowa talaga." kumento naman ni Jean,

"Ulol" sabay na sambit namin ni Jem,

"Ulol kay Faithy ehe ehe!" biglang banat ni Jean, Faithy was his bestfriend too. And yeah--he did fell inlove with her bestfriend.

"Ligawan mo na dude." biglang sabi ni Carms.

"Ulol ka ba, umamin na ako diba? alam mo na sagot." Mapait na sambit ni Jean, I sadly smiled.

"Friends lang,eh? sorry." We said in unison that made Jean glared at us.

"Kailangan sabay sabay kayo?! mga depungal" iritadong sambit nya.

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA" all we did was to laughed at him.

This time, I knew that my laugh was true,no fakeness.

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Realizations;

After laughing with my friends, after pretending that everything was fine made my heart broke inside. But it made my mind clear. It is okay to pretend as long as you can make the persons in your sorrounding happy. As long as you can see that their smile was true. Even it breaks your heart. Even it's hurt.

_END OF CHAPTER ONE_