Reality Hit Me [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER TWO!

SAY IT OR KEEP IT!!!!

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It's already nine o'clock p.m and here I am watching how the stars twinkled.
I tried to reach the sky, I badly tried but I failed.
I love the stars, sila na lang kasi ang kaya kong pag sabihan ng problema ko, and kahit wala sila tuwing umaga. Alam ko na hinihintay nila akong magsabi sakanila, every night.
This is my daily routine. Tell the stars all my problems that even my OWN family didn't know.

I tried to count the stars first bago mag labas ng sama ng loob sakanila, but I failed again, so I did start to rant my problems.

*Flashback*

"Tama na di na ako makahinga kakatawa!" said by Juneah, I agreed. Sumasakit nanaman dibdib ko,gosh!

"Uh! by the way birthday ko na this coming October 12,alam nyo naman siguro?" Jem teased, we nodded.

"Ayun na nga, pinapainvite kayo ni mama." pagpapatuloy nya, I smiled not because of excitement but because of disappointment on myself.

"Game! san mag kikita kita?" atat na sambit ni Jean.

"Araaaaat! wooooah! nice nice" Juneah cheerfully said.

"Uh sunduin nyo ko ah!" sambit na din ni Carms, tumingin naman sila sakin while theres a full of hope in their eyes. Umiling ako.

"You already know that my parents are too strict when it comes to you know." Sambit ko, sa mababang tono.

"Aww" Jean starting to tease me,hmp!

"Naiintindihan mo naman sila diba?" Carms said, I nodded.

"Pero nasasakal ka na! lagi nalang bawal" Jem said, I feel bad for not coming to his birthday.

"Uh I do understand them, I really do." I said and gave them a sad smile.

~End of flashback~

Stars,

Hai! I am here again to rant all my problems to all of you, Why my parents are like that? I do understand them pero masakit na palang masakal? I badly want to come and celebrate my Bestfriend's Birthday, I badly want. But how!?

Mababaw lang luha ko kaya sa simpleng ganun ko lahat ng luha na matagal ko ng pinipigilan ay bumuhos. Ang hirap namang makulong sa gantong sitwasyon. Ang hirap masakal. Ang hirap magkaroon ng striktong mga magulang, Ang hirap,ang sakit.

I sighed at pumasok na sa loob.

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"Good morning,Mom!" I greeted. I kiss her cheek,

"Good morning,Dad!" I greeted and kiss him too.

"How are you feelin'?" They asked in unison.

"Uh? what do you mean mom? and dad?" I asked, trying to be innocent even I already know what's they pointing.

"You knew what we're asking, C'mon!" mom said and rolls her eyes, instead of answering them. I just did smile.

Sa pagkakataong ito, they know that I don't want to talk about 'it'. Wala na din silang magagawa sa tuwing ayaw ko, kaya they remain silent. Even their eyes was full of concern.

"I gotta go,mom! dad!" I said and kiss them,again.

"Mag co-commute ka?" Sigaw na tanong ni mom.

"Yeah,I don't wanna disturb you two, hihi. Bye eomma! bye daddy!" I said, and bid my goodbye.

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After a minutes,I am at our school na.
Habang naglalakakad papunta sa aming silid aralan,ramdam ko yung sakit sa puso ko, how my head aches, how my heart aches. Pero tinuloy ko pa din sa kagustuhang aabot ako sa room namin, I was tryin' not to mind how hurt it was,but for the nth time. I really can't.Ramdam kong malapit na akong bumagsak pero ramdam ko rin na merong sumalo sa babagsak kong katawan,

"Shiang,hey! Wake up!" Said by Jem, I wanna smile because of concern he usually do.
"Shiang hey! don't close your eyes please, shit hey hey! tumawag nga kayo ng ambulansya! dali!" that was the last word I heared and

Everything went black.

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Sumasakit ang ulo ko, sumisikip ang dibdib ko, that was I felt when I tried to open my eyes.

"Kyribabe?" I opened my eyes when I heared a familiar voice,

"D-doc, d-did you tell him the truth?" I asked, immediately.

"No, alam ko namang ayaw mong ipagsabi. But please, say it to them if you're ready." pangaral nya, I let a heavy sighed.

"Doc, ano ka ba! kaya ko ito, malalampasan ko din ito! you trust me,right?" I said,not looking at her. I don't want to see the sympathy on her eyes.

"I hope, Let's hope, but yeah-I do trust you, Take your medicine na,I'll check my other patient too, get well soon Kyribabe" She reminded me, and wink. She used to call me 'KyriBabe'. She's my doctor and friend at the same time.How lucky I am.

Pagkalabas nya, pumasok naman si Jem and again I can see how concern he was. I smiled.

I appreciated it a lot.

"How are you feelin?" He asked, masakit ulo ko, My heart aches.

That was the word I badly want to say but I just did kept it on my mind. Like I usually do.

"I'm Fine! Very cute fine!" I hyperly said, pretending that I am not hurt.

"That's good, uh stay here all day para makapagpahinga ka,okay? We'll visit you later,okay? get well soon Shiang!" He said and kiss my cheeks. I nodded.

Time flies so fast and my circle of friends are already here. I felt so much happiness seeing how worried they was, It so good to be visit by the persons who's important to you, really good.

"Hatdug ka talaga! bat ka nahimatay ha?!" singhal ni Carms,tss.

"Ha? hatdog ka din! " pilosopong sambit ko.

"Carms asking you." Jean reminded, aba seryoso yata sya ngayon? di pa din nakamove on sa pagkafriendzone ito, panigurado. I sighed.

"Nagmamadali akong pumasok tas di ako nakakain,ipaprank ko sana kayo, eh?" I lied while gaving them a peace sign, Carms rolled her eyes.

"Hala! hala! nakakaexcite naman yung prank mo! kyaaah! ulitin mo bukas ah? hihihi, naeexcite tuloy ako!" Juneah suddenly shouts and jump , showing how Excited she was, isip bata talaga ito, mana sakin.

"Ehehehe yieeee! I like that Idea of yours! Gusto ko kasama si ikaw! kaya dapat ikaw ni-aga den okiee?" I said, while baby talking. Nasa mood ako maging isip bata ngayon eh?

"Yes yes!" she hyperly. said.

and by that, We ended up laughing,again. I did keep it on my mind instead of telling them.

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Realizations!

----It is really good when you keeping on your mind what you truly feel than sharing it to others, I did keep it on myself because I don't want them to see how weak I am inside, When they have a problems I am always there to lift them up, and by that ginawa nila akong lakas so what's the point of telling them the truth if I am the one who's lifting them up? baka pag nang hina ako,mas humina sila. So, I choose this path. I did kept it. Instead of sayin.'

_END OF CHAPTER TWO_