First Love // H.S.

25

'Okay, Olivia, tell me. What's going on?' Maddie asks as soon as we're outside where we're sure no one can hear us.

'I don't know, you buying me condoms in front of my fucking brother?' I answer sarcastically.
'How did you know?' Maddie asks.
'Because I know you? Are you serious, Maddie?' I answer. Maddie chuckles.

'It was supposed to be a joke. I knew you would be too embarrassed to take them.' She says.
'Too embarrassed? First of all, I'm on birth control, and second of all, I'm still a virgin.' I protest.
'But you have discussed it with Harry.' Maddie says. It's not a question, it's a statement.

'N-No, I didn't.' I stutter.
'I can tell when you're lying, Liv, and you're lying at this moment.' Maddie comments.
'Okay, okay, we've discussed it. As in matter of fact, we were discussing it today, but you interrupted our discussion by ringing that fucking doorbell half an hour too early.' I confess. Maddie chuckles again.

'Sorry, I didn't know. But um, I figure you guys are gonna do it soon?' She asks.
'Probably not since we don't know when, where or how.' I answer.
'How? You don't know how?' Maddie asks.
'Why do you keep forgetting I'm a virgin, Maddie?' I reply, along with a sigh.

'Oh, right. And Harry is a virgin too, you both have no experience. Have you guys ever even, like- touched each other? I mean, with clothes on.' Maddie asks.
'Yes.' I answer shortly.
'Okay. And um, do you want to have sex with him?' Maddie continues.
'Yes.' I repeat.

'But you don't know when, where or how. Um, you've gotta do it when one of you is home alone, or in case of emergency, book a hotel room. That's also the answer to where. And how, just ask me what you need to know. And a tip, do it at evening. It feels way more romantic that way.' Maddie explains.

'I'm never home alone since I live in a house with seven others.' I say.
'And Harry?' Maddie asks.
'He has more chance.' I answer.
'Great. Can I give you another tip?' Maddie asks. I nod in response.

'Never, never let him go inside you without having have anything done before that. Do some foreplay. Or else, you're gonna be too dry and it's gonna hurt if that's the case.' She tells.
'But isn't it gonna hurt anyway?' I ask.
'That depends. It hurt a little for me, but not a lot. It felt great after that, so it was worth the little pain.' She answers.

'And what does foreplay exactly contain?' I ask.
'Um, fingering, eating out, handjob, blowjob, et cetera.' Maddie answers.
'Do I- Do I have to-?' I stutter awkwardly.
'If you want your first time to hurt like hell because you're not wet enough, of course not. It's just something I recommend.' Maddie tells.

'You're scaring me. But, blowjob, isn't that- isn't that disgusting to do?' I ask.
'Yeah, well, it isn't my hobby since I pretty much gag every time I do it.' Maddie tells.
'And when David comes? Do you swallow it?' I ask.
'Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. Oh, before you continue, I have a question- do you shave it down there?' Maddie asks me.

'Yes, I've been doing that since hair started growing down there since I find it ugly. Is that wrong?' I ask.
'No, I totally recommend shaving. It feels more hygienic, and it feels better for him as well.' She tells.
'And does he shave?' I ask.
'I dunno, Harry's your boyfriend, not mine. David does. Most guys do. I think Harry does too.' She answers.

'Okay. And I saw somewhere that it's important to pee after sex? Is that right?' I ask.
'Yes! Crucial step! And you said that you were on birth control, but I would still use a condom. It protects against STD's as well.' Maddie answers.
'But we're both virgins.' I comment.

'Oh, I see. Yeah, then you would just be using a condom for more safety. It's your own choice.' Maddie says, leaving a silence.

'I'm scared now.' I confess, breaking the silence. Maddie gives me a consoling look.