Always Adam

Chapter 25

Christmas Eve finds me at Ted and Donna's. I decided to sleep over and be there for Christmas morning. Olivia was thrilled. I hadn't seen Adam since the day we kissed. His hot and cold attitude constantly confused me. I loved it when he was hot, but the cold was hard to swallow. After we open present Christmas morning, I make my way upstairs to check my phone. I have a message from Adam. "Hey bad ass. I was just calling to wish you a Merry Christmas. Call me when you can." I set my phone down and go back downstairs to help Donna with breakfast.

I wait till I'm back at my apartment to call Adam. I don't know why I play this game. I wanted to call him immediately, but my pride wouldn't let me. I make myself play it cool with Adam. I guess I don't want to seem over anxious. He confuses me so much. I don't know whether to be chill or bring it on strong. Ava said to be patient so I try to play it cool and let him make all the moves. Trouble is he is moving way to slow. I want him to speed up a bit.

He answers almost immediately. "Merry Christmas," I tell him. "I was starting to think maybe I wouldn't hear from you today," he says. I ignore the stabbing in my gut. Why was it he made me feel so guilty. "I was at Donna and Ted's. We had a nice time. Olivia wants me to move back in," I laugh. "I'd like to see you. Is it alright if I come over," he asks. "Sure," I tell him. I set the phone down and run to the bathroom to check my appearance and brush my teeth. I hurry to my room and pull out the gift I have for Adam. I have gifts for Ava and Nat also. I leave them in my closet.

I open the door and Adam comes in giving me a big hug. My body is like a magnet to his. I instantly mesh into him and hug him back. Best Christmas ever I think as I breathe him in. He pulls away and leads me to the couch. "I've missed you," he says pulling me down on his lap as he sits on the couch. I want to tell him I've missed him to, but I don't. I just don't know what to do when it comes to Adam and expressing my feelings to him. I hate that I have to second guess everything with him.

He cups my face and pulls me to him for a kiss. It's a soft sweet kiss that makes my toes curl. "I missed you to," I say to him when our lips part. He smiles at me. Wow. My potential boyfriend is so hot. "I got you something," he says pulling out a small gift box. I reach out and take it from him. I want to squeal in delight, but I don't. That would be way too juvenile. I slowly peel off the Christmas wrapping paper to reveal a box that most likely has some type of jewelry in it. I open the lid to find a gold necklace with a heart hanging on it. "Oh Adam, it's beautiful," I say bending my head to kiss him.

"You're beautiful," he tells me when our lips part. I melt. I turn so I'm straddling him. I wrap my arms around his neck and hug him to me. I know in my heart that I love Adam. I just have to follow Ava's advice and be patient. I pull away and grab my present for him. I worry my gift isn't that good now. It seemed safe and logical at the time, but after him buying me jewelry, I'm not so sure now. He smiles at me and unwraps the gift. Inside is a bottle of cologne. He opens it and smells it. "I hope you like it," I tell him nervously. "I had to smell a lot of cologne before finding that one."

"It's smells good Carly," he says dabbing some on his neck. "How's it smell on me," he asks flirtatiously. I grin and lean down to smell his neck. I feel brave and go with my instinct. "It smells so good I want to do this," I say kissing his neck. "And this," I say giving his neck a small lick. He moans so softly I have to wonder if I really heard it. I continue to trail kisses over his neck. He sets the cologne on the table and spins me so I'm pinned to the couch underneath him. "You keep that up," he says huskily "and I'm going to pour the entire bottle all over myself."

His lips crash down on mine and his tongue dances in my mouth. Heat consumes me and I find myself grinding into him. His hands run through my hair and mine do the same to his. I can feel his want grinding into me. I moan rather loudly with want myself. We make out on the couch for a long time. Our bodies grinding together with need. The things he does to me makes me unable to think clearly. He could totally have me right now and I wouldn't be able to stop him. I don't think I would want to stop him.

Finally Adam pulls away. He's flushed and panting. "Geez Carly. What you do to me," he says trying to pull himself together. "I need a cold shower every time I'm even near you," he says running his hands through his hair. I grin at him. "I don't think an ice bath would help me right now," he says standing to adjust himself. I can still see the bulge in his pants. He follows my eyes and I blush. Now it's his turn to grin. "Like what you see," he flirts. "I think I may need to see more before making that call," I flirt back. "Shit Carly, you can't say that kind of stuff. You know what you're doing to me," he says pulling me to him. "I know what you're doing to me," I say.

He pulls away from me and turns the television on. "I think we should watch a movie or something for now." I pout for a minute but then realize he's right. It's too soon to go any further and I'm not sure I'm ready. Well I guess my body is ready, but my mind is a bit behind. I snuggle into him and we spend the night watching old eighties movies. He leaves a little after midnight. "I'll call you tomorrow," he says as he kisses me goodbye at the door. Once he leaves I float into my bedroom and strip before crawling under the covers.

I spend the next couple days making out with Adam at my apartment. We did take in a movie one day and went ice skating again another. Nat's foster brother Greg has promised to get us into the club for New Years Eve. I wondered if he knew about Nat and Marcus. If he even cared about what Nat was doing or who she was doing. I never asked Nat about her and Greg. I really didn't ask her about Marcus either. I can tell they really loved each other though. I watch them with envy. Their relationship is so easy even with the obstacle of hiding it at home.

New Years Eve we find ourselves partying at the club Rush. Greg made good on his promise to get us in. This time Adam never leaves my side. He plays the part of boyfriend all night. I wasn't sure if that's what we were. I was afraid to ask him to define us. So I just went with it. We danced and had a blast. When the countdown began to the New Year I was excited. A new year with new friends. A new year with Adam. I found myself hoping all my new years would start off kissing Adam. Our lips came together as Happy New Year cheers surrounded us. I just couldn't get enough of Adam and it seemed he couldn't get enough of me. Ava was thrilled with our relationship.  

When school resumed, I find Adam waiting for me at my locker. When I approach he pulls me to him and kisses me. "Good morning," he grins at me. "Yes it is," I grin back. He kisses me again. I like this. Kissing Adam. Kissing Adam at school. I notice several people watching us. After I gather my books, Adam takes my hand and walks me to my class. He lingers when we reach my classroom. His hand reaches out and touches my face. He's looking at me with an intensity that makes my knees weak. I like how it makes me feel. I reach out and pull his head to mine. Our lips touch and the bell rings. I slip my tongue into his mouth and he moans. "You're so bad," he says before hurrying off to class.

Adam and I never discussed being a couple. It was just assumed. Adam spends a lot of time at my apartment. He also accompanies me to Ted and Donna's for dinner every other Sunday. On the other Sunday's we have dinner at his house with his gram and Ava. Olivia is in love with Adam. Donna is pretty smitten to. I am so happy with my new life. I love all my new friends, I'm doing great at school and I'm head over heels for Adam. He's sweet, caring and loving. I couldn't have asked for a better first boyfriend. I was almost happy Mike did what he did to me. Adam hadn't been with anyone other than Nikki so I wasn't with a player or someone who I knew would dump me once they got what they wanted.

Speaking of getting what he wanted. Or should I say what I wanted. I had been giving a lot of thought to my first time. I knew it would be with Adam. I just wasn't sure when. It wasn't like we talked about it. I was starting to think that if I wanted to be with Adam, I would have to make the move. I could tell he struggled with the whole Nikki thing off and on. He told me on several occasion how hard it was for him sometimes. He had a lot of guilt. I guess you could call it survivor's guilt. He was trying to move on, but at times he couldn't help but feel he was cheating on Nikki. I did my best to remain patient with him when he went through those feelings of guilt.