Bitch For A Purpose

CHAPTER 35

WARNING: Content SPG. For real.

 

CHASTENE’S POV

 

"Hans, anong movie ang papanoorin natin after nito?" Medyo sweet na tanong ko kay Hans.

Nakaupo kaming tatlo ngayon sa sala. Magkatabi kami ni Troy sa sofa at si Hans naman ay nasa couch. I felt Troy stiffened.

 

"Bagong movie agad? Di pa naman tapos ang pinapanood natin ah." Nakakunot ang kilay na sabi ni Hans.

 

"Naiinip na ako eh. Saka alam naman natin na hindi pwedeng magkatotoo ang nasa movie na yan—or if ever, madalang lang." I said.

 

"What do you mean?" Singit ni Troy na kanina pa parang bato sa tabi ko. Halatang nagtitimpi siya kanina pa.

I gave him a small smile at ibinalik ang atensyon ko sa movie.

Maybe you guys are wondering how we ended up in this situation. Well, sinadya ko ito pero hindi ko ito pinlano.

Hindi ako gaya ng ibang tao na mahilig gumanti—except with Hans I think, masyado kasi akong nasaktan noon and I admit that that time, I wasn't mature enough. But with Troy? Never. I never ever wanted to hurt him.

You see, I love Troy. And when I knew what he's been hiding from me all along, I was hurt. Ayoko lang aminin sa sarili ko dahil sa pride ko pero sobra akong nasaktan. I know I don't have the right anymore with me almost 'cheating' on him but what can I do? I really love him.

I never thought that someone could actually love two persons at the same time... but at what extent? I know I love Hans more, but I can't risk Troy getting hurt. I don't want to hurt him because it's like hurting myself too.

I allowed Troy to be with us tonight not to hurt him but to see if I really affect him the way I think I do. Call me selfish, the hell I care. I just want to know if he really loves me because me? I do.

 

"I do believe that people can remain loyal to someone, but they cannot remain honest." Makahulugang sabi ko pagkalipas ng ilang sandali.

Walang nagsalita ni isa sa amin. For several minutes, only the sound coming from the movie can be heard. Ang awkward. Nakuha kaya ni Troy ang ibig kong sabihin?

 

"People keep secrets to spare the one's they love from hurt." Mahina pero malinaw na sabi ni Troy.

So what is he trying to say? That he is just saving me? Wow. Just wow. I think I should throw a party in honor of him. Tsk.

 

"Til when? They know that sooner or later their secrets would be revealed, no secret is safe, Troy. It doesn't make a difference. Reveal it as early as 12:01, it will hurt. Keep it as late as 11:59, it will still hurt.

 

A knife at January is still a knife at December. It still cuts." I said.

Troy looked at me, I know. But my eyes stayed glued on the flat screen tv. I can't even understand what's happening in the movie anymore. Masyado ng occupied ni Troy ang utak ko.

 

The movie ended without any of us saying a word. Look how funny our situation is. Kasama ko sa iisang sala ang dalawang lalaking mahal ko. Malandi mang pakinggan pero iyon ang totoo.