Behind the skies and lies

Kabanata 5

He calmed me down. He took care of me while I'm not in the right state of mind. Humiwalay na ako sakaniya when I gathered myself and moved on a bit. I'm fine. It did not happened. I will bury that memory six feet underground.

"It did not happened right? No one knows that right? Just you and me?"

He nod but his eyes are predatory...with a glimpse of gentleness.

"You will not going to do that again. Do you understand?"

"Of course, I won't! I'm traumatized already! I'm not that crazy to do that again!" ani ko at nag iwas nang tingin. I quickly surveyed the area we are in. 

"Nasaan ako?" dagdag ko.

"You are in my unit." 

Tumango ako nang mabagal at inilibot ang mata sa lugar. Wow. His place looks cozy and modern. 

"Take a bath. Choose whatever you want to wear in my closet."

I have no plans to stay here but I don't want to go home either! I have no choice but...to stay here.

Sinunod ko na lang siya. His things are too organized and virile. Most of it are neutral, wala masyadong colorful clothes. I just pick some random black shirt, boxer and pajama. He took a bath after me.

Anong oras na pero hindi pa rin ako inaantok. Mas gutom pa ako kaya kinatok ko siya.

"Hey, pagamit ako ng kusina. Do you want to eat with me?"

"Yeah. I'm coming."

Marunong naman ako magluto. I made some fried rice, sweet and sour chicken and some side dish.  I also cut some cucumber and put it in our water. I have this habit to make my food presentable whenever I cook. It boosts my appetite.

"Akalain mo 'yon? Nagluluto ka pala," he said while drying his hair with the towel.

I never knew this can be so attractive.

"Anong akala mo sakin? Batugan? Masarap ako magluto 'no. Umupo ka na dyan."

"Okay ka na nga."

I grinned at him.

We eat peacefully. Halos tunog lang ng kutsara at tinidor ang naririnig namin. Himala nga ito. We always bicker. Maybe it is just because of what happened a while ago. I will forget that it happened.

"I'll wash our dishes. Rest in my room. Sunod na rin ako."

Napahinto ako. "Uh...share ba tayo sa bed?"

"Do you mind it?" Ngumisi siya. "Sa couch na ko."

Napakurap ako. "Wala ka bang guess room? Para dun na lang ako."

"This is still new. It is still under renovation." 

Napatango ako at mukhang wala nga kaming choice kung hindi ang magshare ng room.

I sighed. I don't mind it if we'll...share.

"Tabi na lang tayo. Let's just...put something in between," Para akong nahihibang pero siya parang normal lang ang lahat. He's just too used to this!

Nakatingin lang ako sa kisame habang hinihintay siya na pumasok. It is my first time to sleep with a man! I don't really know what to feel. Kaya nang bumukas ang pinto parang huminto ang hininga ko at pumikit na lang.

Naramdaman kong bumigat ang kabilang kama. It's fine, nagharang naman na ako ng ilang unan sa pagitan namin. I have no worries. Bakit ba parang di pa rin ako mapakali?

"I'll sleep now, Alyaina. Sleep too and breathe please," he playfully said.

Doon ko palang narealize na I'm really holding my breath! Huminga ako ng malalim. What's happening to you, Alya?! This is not right. He is not good for me.