Love Maze; Lost (Completed)

Chapter 36 Expired

C h a p t e r 36 Expired

Ayesha Alexandra Astrid's POV

Destiny's really playful. Biruin niyo? 2 days after ko siyang sinagot tas ganito na? Nagkandaleche-lecje na. Two days lang akong binigyan ng tadhana na maging masaya sa una kong lovelife. What a shame?!

At kapatid ko pa pala ang ex ng boyfriend ko, and they just kissed in front of me days ago! What a small word?

Days had passed but I didn't receive any message from him (Arc), and thinking it's because of my sister? Damn! Really hurts. Maybe sila na ang magkatext ngayon. Hindi ko mapigilan ang pait sa aking isipan.

And as the days passed my sister was always visiting me but later on leaves because of some reason (I suspected, it was because of of Arc).

Weeks passed and no Arc. I really miss him. Does he?

I tried to compose a message to him but end up saying "wag nalang, baka nakakaistorbo lang ako"

And because Arc didn't insinuating to me this days, I came with a question.  Does Arc love me? No, I'll rephrase that. Did Arc really love nor like me in the first place? — There was a time I followed my sister like a fcking stalker! And following her, answered my question, seeing him being with my sister can now answer my damn question. It's like their smile is a knives to me that stabs my heart a million times. —  He didn't, he just used me as a coverall. And damn! It hurts!

But I need a closure. I need it, so I can let him free. So, my mind will at least be clear. And I'll be back to the old me, though, I know how hard it is.

In the next day, I texted him. No reply. I texted him again. No reply. So I called him, and in the forth ring he answered.

I waited him to talk but he didn't. Hence, I spoke to kill the silence. "A-Ahmmm" the only sound came into my mouth.

I look over at my to see if he already ended it but he's still there, thus, I took all the courage I have to speak.  "C-Can we..." I bit my lower lip to not stutter.  "Ahmm... Meet?"

I waited for him to speak. And he spoke after ten minutes.  "I-In the café near the school" anito at nawalan na ng imik.

Tiningnan ko kung pinatay na nito ang tawag pero mali ako, kaya ako na ang pumatay nito without saying anything.

Seconds later I found myself standing at my closet (not a walk in closet, just a closet) and picking a dress that I'll use in my farewell speech.

I one million thought about my decision last night and I came up with letting him go. And thinking letting him go is like suicidal but I don't have any other choice but to opt to.

Masakit ang mang-iwan pero mas masakit kung magtiis ka sa taong wala nang pakea sa'yong nararamdaman.

What's the purpose of keeping a person who doesn't want to be kept?

I took a tricycle to go to the said café and I saw him. Leaning on a chair gawking.

I coughed, for him to notice me and when he noticed me he nonplussed on what he'll do, if he will escort me sitting or what but he opt not to move in his seat. And pain starting to across in my face again but I tried not to show it to him.

I sat in front of him. I ordered just a chocolate cake and a chocolate coffee.  "A-Ahmm" I started. He didn't look at me but I know he was listening. "I-I want to meet you because," I saw how his breath stop while waiting for my next words.  "I-I am now breaking up" halos manginig na ang boses ko sa pagsasalita.  "w-with you" my voice was shaking and my tears started in cascading. Napakabigat sa kalooban, parang gusto ko nalang na mamatay kesa sa paunti-unti nitong pagpatay.