Love Maze; Lost (Completed)

Wakas

Wakas

Ayesha Alexandra Astrid's POV

Hindi lahat ng storya ay nagtatapos sa happy ending, and maybe me and Arc are one of it.

"How's your  first week here?" papa asked.

We've been here (San Francisco) exactly a week after now.  "Ok naman po" I smiled but that smile didn't reach my eyes.

The reason why we move here, was because of my sister. Because of her heart problem. And as of now we doesn't have a donor yet. But the hospital told us na kapag may nahanap na sila ay tatawagan niya kami. Hopefully this year ay meron na.

One week and one day after the confrontation but it still hurt every time I think about it. I'm trying to divert my attention but at the end of the day I end up crying for the same damn reason and person!

I'll get used to it. I'm always saying this just to mitigate the feeling I'm feeling.

Well, maybe ito na ang sinasabi nilang 'pinagtagpo pero di tinadhana'

Some says we just met them to learn lessons.

Damn that lessons! What are the use of that lessons, if we doesn't have the assurance in disembarkation in the feelings we felt?

Are those lessons can heal the wond that was so deep? Even it will, a scar will be left, that reminds us how hard we've been through.

Days after days. Weeks after weeks.

I continued studying hear and if God's will I'll be graduating next month.

The school I was entering was good. Lots of activities, lots of experience. School at day and hangout at night. I easily adjusted my self here, but sadly I was moving on slowly.

But I'm happy because at least I have an improvement. Hindi na ako kagaya noon na tuwing naiisip ko siya ay iiyak ako sa huli, ngayon kase kung naiisip ko siya may lungkot, kirot at pighati pero hindi na ako umiiyak, I can now endure the pain that he caused me.

I can say na napakadami kong na-miss noong kabataan ko (I was now 20), like hangouts in bars and dates with men and kissing with them (that's part of my hobby now).  I was now comfortable in dressing above the knee dresses because of my lovely sister.

Many guys tried to court me but no one succeed. I'm not ready to love again.

Am I not? or it's because I love him?

One week before our graduation when I—we received a big news– a good one, may donor na daw ng puso ang kapatid ko. I was happy back then, coz finally! Napakaganda itong regalo para sa graduation ko!

At some point I was happy because me and Arc broke up because I'm slowly discovering the things that I didn't used to discover before. I discovered a lot of new things in this cruel world all by my self. And I'm happy that I'm freeing my self from ignorance.

And as the time passed by I realized that I was very young back then and didn't know what was the true world. And the true world was waiting for me outside my cave.

We just celebrated my graduation in a simple way. No friends, no aunties nor uncles nor tita, just me, papa and my sister. Hindi sumama si Tita Rubella, as well as my mama, sabi niya di niya daw iiwan ang trabaho niya don, papa suggested a better work but she declined it.

The operation to my sister isn't done yet (hindi pa nasisimulan) , they are doing some things daw—I didn't bother to know though.

Slowly, I'm accepting the fact that me and Arc aren't for each other. And slowly realizing that people not always tend to come to stay, some will just teach us a lessons.