In The Middle Of Nowhere [COMPLETED]

Wakas

This will be the last part of the stroy. Thank you for reading!

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Wakas

Iminulat ko ang aking mga mata at doon nakita ang iilan pang pares ng mga mata na puno ng pag aalala.

"Ma..." kakagising ko lang at puro kirot ang nararamdaman ko sa iba't ibang parte ng katawan ko. Pero iba pala talaga kapag yung kirot nanggaling sa puso.

Masyadong masakit.

"Anak, I-I'm sorry." humagulgol siya habang nakahawak sa aking mga kamay.

"Ma... Bakit?" humagulgol na rin ako. Napalingon ako sa dalawa pang pares ng mata na nanonood sa amin. Si Papa at Tita Noreen.

That time, nalaman ko na may pamilya na ngang iba si Mama. She stole me away from my Dad para lang maging miserable ang buhay ni Papa. Because that time, he was already cheating with Tita Noreen. Great, Right? Ang tagal na rin pala.

Pagod na pagod ako sa mga oras na iyon. Ni hindi ko na naisip ang sarili kong kaligayahan nang hilingin nila sa akin na kalimutan si Klein. Ang taong mahal ko. Bi hindi man lang nila ako binigyan ng palugit. Sa oras na dumating siya kailangan kong sabihing nakalimutan ko na siya.

Pwede akong tumanggi, Oo. Lalo na't ang pareho kong mga magulang ay niloko ako. Pwede akong mag taksil at suwayin sila pero hindi iyon ang ginawa ko. I was afraid, alright? I was afraid to broke their hearts. Matagal pa akong mabubuhay sa mundo kaya mas madami pa akong magagawa kaysa sa kanila. And so I did let them.

Pero hindi ibig sabihin noon na mababaw lang ang pagmamahal na mayroon ako kay Klein. Klein was everything to me. He became my comfort zone but I guess, right now is also the right time to walk out of it and find myself being independent.

I guess this is the proper ending of our story. And even though we're not meant to stay with each other, I'm lucky that the universe allowed us to meet even for just a short period of time. I'm still lucky I had the chance to know him more. I'm lucky that I've experienced his love and I also experience how to love him. Maybe stories are not always meant to end the way you want it to be. But no matter what happened, both of the main characters will end up happily. I know. I know that this maybe the end of our story but this is not the end of my story.

Maybe this love will find a home in another time. But not now. Not now that I'm pretending that I already found myself but the truth is I'm still lost. I still don't know where I stand or where I belong.

But the sight of Nerese made me feel that all decisions I've made this past years was just right. Nag bunga ng isang anghel ang sakit ng nakaraan.

"Someday, you will be able to accept the decisions you made whole-heartedly." naalala kong sabi ni Gil sa akin.

We met in a coffee shop. Natapunan niya noon ng coffee ang uniform ko. Hindi ako naka attend sa isang subject kakahintay sa pangako niyang damit na bibilhin niya raw para mabayaran ang kasalanan niya. That scene started our story.

Sinabi ko sa kanya lahat ng hinanakit ko sa mundo at kahit isang reklamo ay wala akong narinig sa kanya. I also expect him to say that I'm stupid for choosing the wrong decisions but he didn't. Instead, he told me that someday, I'll be able to accept those decisions.