Love Maze

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Eun Kyung's POV

Sobrang saya ng puso ko dahil sa nangyari kahapon sa practice room nila. Halos hindi matanggal yung ngiti sa labi ko nung umuwi kami kahapon.

But, there still a part of me na natatakot. Natatakot na baka sa mga susunod na araw mas malala na yung mangyari. Kung tutuusin maliit na hindi pag kakaintindihan lang yung nangyari sa aming dalawa pero hindi namin agad naresolba.

May practice ulit sila ngayon pero hindi muna ako pumunta ng BigHit. Mamaya na lang siguro pagtapos kong magbake ng cookies. Nandito rin naman kasi sila Ji Ah sa bahay at sabay sabay na lang daw kaming pumunta.

After namin maglunch ay dumiretso na kami sa BigHit dala yung binake ko na cookies. Nasa may elevator na kami ng nakita ko yung imahe ni Jungkook na palabas ng building may kasunod na siya na babae pero hindi ko makilala kung sino dahil naka-hoodie iyon at naka-mask. Mula dito sa pwesto ko kitang-kita ko yung irritadong mukha ni Jungkook. Sa sobrang kuryosidad ko ay napagdesisyunan kong sundan sila ng tahimik.

"Bee, una na kayo dun. May nakalimutan ako bilhin, padala nalang din tong cookies" pagsisinungaling ko sa kanilang dalawa.

Maingat akong naglakad para sundan silang dalawa. Tumigil ako nung tumigil sila sa paglalakad at nagtago sa malaking pader na nakita ko. Sana pala hindi na lang ako sumunod at hinayaan na lang silang dalawa. I didn't expect that coming thou. I was too shocked on what I've heard. Sana nabingi lang ako, sana hindi toto yung narinig ko.

I was about to walk away when I saw how she pulled Jungkook closer to her, their lips meet. Nanghina ako bigla sa nasaksihan ko. Akala ko mas masakit pa yung narinig kong pag-uusap nila pero mas masakit pa pala yung sumunod na pangyayari. Gusto kong tumakbo paalis sa pwesto ko pero nawala bigla yung lakas ko. Sa sobrang panghihina ko napa-upo na lang ako sa kinatatayuan ko at pinakawalan ko yung mga hikbing kanina ko pa pinipigilan buti na lang at naka-alis na silang dalawa.

Hindi dapat ako umiiyak dahil hindi ko alam yung totoo. Ayokong maniwala sa narinig at nakita ko dahil hindi naman mismo sa bibig ni Jungkook nanggaling yung mga salitang yun. And that kiss, I know he didn't want that. Inipon ko yung buong lakas ko para maglakad palabas ng parking lot. I don't know if I can face him in this kind of state. Uuwi na lang muna siguro ako.

Nagleave na lang ako ng message kay Ji Ah. Sinabi ko lang na may pupuntahan pala ako. Nagdecide ako na maglakad lakad na lang muna sa may park malapit sa Han River para kahit papaano ay malibang ako. I even turned off my phone para walang makacontact sa akin. I want to be alone.

"Hi, are you alone?" nagulat ako sa boses na narinig ko kaya nilingo ko siya.

"Hello, unfortunately Yes." awkward na sagot ko sa kanya.

"Brokenhearted?" casual na tanong niya. Hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko sa tanong niya. Ngumiti lang ako sakanya. "Anyways, Allysa is the name. But, you can call me Ysa." then she flashed a smile on her face.

"Eun Kyung. Btw, Taga dito ka?" i asked her, because she look likes a foreigner.

"Yep, but I'm not Korean." naka-ngiting sagot niya sa akin. She smiles a lot but there is something on her eye, pain and sadness. "If you don't mind, you can tell me what's bothering you." I guess I should somehow tell her what's bothering me, she's a stranger for me after all.

I sighed. "Me and my boyfriend had a small misunderstanding but, we already resolve it. Then, kanina nakita ko siyang may kasamang babae kaya sinundan ko sila and I heard their conversation and the girl pulled my boyfriend into kiss. I know I should confront him about that matter but, I ran away." sa totoo lang sobrang bigat talaga ng dibdib ko. I want to cry pero I managed not too.

"Misunderstanding and arguments are already part of relationship. Pero why did you run away? Ano ba yung narinig mo?" seryosong tanong niya.

Nagplay naman sa utak ko yung sinabi ni Lian. "She told to my boyfriend that something happened between them that night when they saw each other at the bar. She even begs to my boyfriend to choose her over me. At first, hindi nakasagot yung boyfriend maybe because he's still processing what the girl told him and alam mo yung mas nakakagulat?" huminto muna ako dahil nararamdaman ko na yung mga luha na kanina ko pa pinipigilang mahulog.

"He asked the girl if sigurado daw ba siya dahil wala daw siyang maalala nung gabi na iyon. I didn't even know na pumunta siya ng bar nung araw na iyon. We've been in a relationship for 5 years and ngayon lang nangyari ang bagay nato. I don't know how to handle this kind of mess. Did it count as cheating?" halos hindi na ako makahinga habang nagsasalita. My heart aches; it feels like someone stabs me with a knife.

Mas lalo akong nagbreakdown nung naramdaman kong hinagod ni Ysa yung likod ko. I just sobbed silently but it was full of pain. I didn't expect this to happen. Never ginawa sa akin ni Jungkook ang bagay na ito, as in ngayon lang. I trust him pero sa nangyayari ngayon I don't know if I can trust him. The plans we build together starts to collapse.

"Technically, yes it was cheating. I don't know what to say but, the best thing you can do is to talk to him about this matter. Malay mo naman may explanation siya. Try to listen to him. Ang tagal niyo na, kaya sigurado ako na matibay yung tiwala niyo sa isa't isa. Don't let this misunderstanding ruin your relationship. I know it hurts but, you need to face it and talk to him." Her voice was more personal, it feels like we shared the same emotion. I slightly look at her, only to find out that she's also crying.

"Did I make you cry? Sorry" I tried to give her a weak smile.

"It's okay. I just remember someone and I'm kinda relate to you. But, I'm okay. No scratch that. I'm trying to be okay." She managed to smile at me but, I know it's fake.

Madilim na nung nag-yaya siyang kumain. Ako na nagbayad nung kinain naming, tumanggi pa nga siya but, I insisted hindi rin naman siya pumalag. Naglakad ulit kami sa park at nagpalipas ng oras ayaw ko pa rin kasi umuwi dahil medyo namamaga pa yung mata ko and kapag umuwi ako ng ganun bobombahin lang ako ng tanong nung dalawa. I'm not yet ready to tell them. Ysa and I exchanged numbers so that we can reach each other.

"Thanks for crying with me Ysa. Til' next time." I smiled at her as I waved my hands. Nauna kasi siyang sumakay ng bus.

"It's my pleasure. See you around" nakangiting sagot niya bago tuluyang sumara yung pinto ng bus.

Somehow, gumaan yung pakiramdam ko. Thanks to Ysa. Pagdating ko sa bahay ay naabutan ko yung dalawang bruha na naka-upo sa sala at parehong naka-taas yung kilay nung nakita akong pumasok sa pinto.

"Where the hell did you go? And you're fucking phone is out of reach" bungad sa akin ni unnie.

"Lowbatt phone ko sorry. May kinita lang na kaibigan from middle school and hindi namin napansin yung oras." Pag-sisinungaling ko.

"Jungkook, he's with Lian. Nag dinner ata sila." Casual na sabi ni Ji Ah. I felt a sudden pain in my heart pero hindi ko iyon pinansin.I tried to maintain my expression.

"Ah yes, he texted me earlier." A fucking lie, I didn't know if may message ba talaga siya dahil simula kanina ay hindi ko binuksan yung phone ko.

"Okay lang sayo?" hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni unnie sa akin habang naka-taas yung kilay niya.

I sighed. "Yes, it just a friendly date. In the end of the day, ako pa din naman hahanapin niya." I tried to conceal the emotion I had right now.

"Anyways, pupunta kami sa dorm dahil nagyaya silang mag movie marathon. You want to come or we'll send Jungkook here to pick you up?" sambit ni Ji Ah na busy sa pag-aayos ng shopping bag na puno ng chips baka dadalhin nila duon.

"Actually, I'm tired. Pass muna ako sa movie marathon with the gang. And, no need to send him here, I'll just text him." I smiled at them before making my way to my room.

Pagpasok ko sa kwarto ay agad akong dumiretso sa banyo ko at duon nagkulong. Umiyak na naman ako, akala ko tapos na kanina dahil inilabas ko na kay Ysa lahat may natira pa pala. I just cried inside my bathroom like a 5 years old. Nung naramdaman ko yung pagod ay tumigil ako sa pag-iyak at natulog. I slept with a swollen eyes and a heavy heart.