I long for
And cry for
I crawl for
And scream for
Her to look at me
See me
Love me
Her child
I yearn for her to
Express all the love she hid for
So long
Thinking it not her choice
Yet everyday I try
Earn it
Beg for it
And never end up getting it
And it's like a hot iron on my heart
Marking me as unlovable
Proving my suspicious
That love is never freely given
I am never worthy
Never will be worthy
Those that approach only give me false hope
So I fearfully reject
I am unloveable
Undeserving
Disgusting
A mess
These feelings have been etched
For so very long
How to escape this labyrinth
Ive been running around in my whole life
I will survive it
Overcome it
Teach myself to believe again
I am worthy and powerful and I will survive once more
She does not define me
Or my relationships
Or my heartaches or pain
I will forgive
I will be set free
I will be okay again
These thoughts I want to believe
-emotionally absent mother
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Paper Heart Poetry
PoetryThey don't prepare you for these feelings when you're a kid. ●●● Pain in the shape of words because human emotion is a powerful source of inspiration. Revel in the contradictions. Swim in the salty depths of grief. Climb the mountains of sorrow. Re...
