The Nearness Of You

19

Jinnie

"I came from an angel race called the Grigori." I tell him as I look straight into his eyes that showed pure curiosity. "I guess you're already familiar about the archangels. They're our superiors. We, the Grigori, are guided by the archangel's virtues. Michael, Gabriel, Rafael, and all the other archangels watch over us. I've been walking the Earth long enough, with different names some I can no longer remember."

"Grigori? What kind of angel is that?" Seungri asks me looking like a kid with a lot of questions running in his head, thirsty for an answer.

I pause for awhile, thinking if I should still continue or not. But I already showed him what I truly am and already started talking. I made up my mind to just tell him everything. I took a deep breath.

"Grigori are known to be called Watchers. We were created to be Earthly sheperds of the human race. We were dispatched here on Earth to simply watch over your kind. Our job is to observe humanity, lending a helping hand when necessary but not to interfere." I answer him. "But living with humans like you can somehow change us. And some of us who did became the Fallen ones."

Seungri stares at me curiously, "Change? What do you mean by that?" He asks. "And what's a Fallen one?"

"As a Grigori we're just here to serve and protect humans. We only know how to be just, fair, and brave. But I guess we're also made to be corruptible. We are strictly forbidden to associate with your kind. Intimately speaking I mean. But during the course of time some of us did. Some of us learned to love mortals like you. And once it happens, we have to suffer the fate of being a Fallen." I removed my gaze at him. "We will then be sent to the depths of hell. And much worse, become a daemon. The one that almost killed you is a daemon. Some creature who was once an angel like me but was damned. " And sooner or later that's what I'll become.. If the archangels finds out that I have loved a mortal like you..

"I've lived here in your world for a long period of time along with hundreds of my kind. As time passed by our number decreased. Some of us, a lot of us, couldn't help not to be mesmerized and fall in love with humans. Such weak trait Grigori's aren't supposed to have. The archangels punished them and they became Fallen ones. They then turned into something hideous afterwards. Daemons. Some who escaped that fate are in hiding. I doubt they're living a peaceful life right now. I hope they are. They walk the earth in human form. You can never tell that they're a Fallen not unless they'll reveal themselves." I tell him. "Those who didn't became unearthly creatures are still in human form. Like me and you."

"So.. What are you.." Seungri sounded unsure if he'll ask me or not but I can hear his thoughts and the question he would like to ask.

I shook my head. "No. I'm not a Fallen. Well, not yet. It's a different case for me." I turn my attention back at him. "The archangels gave me another chance. In a few weeks my punishment will be lifted and I can go back to be what I am before. What I was. Didn't you notice awhile ago when I changed form? I don't have my wings. A reminder that I am being punished. Some of my strength and my powers have been taken away from me as well. I'm weak and trapped in this human body I own as of now. Yesung, the guy I'm always with, the guy you met at the bar before, he's like me."

Seungri nods and looks at the floor. It seems to me that he's really bothered with all of this. "So it means some time soon you'll no longer be the person who you are right now.. And that you'll soon leave.." There's sadness in his voice as he said those words. So that was what he's been thinking. That soon I'll be gone.

"I'm afraid so.." But I won't be the same anymore.. I'm willing to risk my life because I love you.. And experience how it feels being loved by you.. I don't care if I won't get back to what I really am and be damned. I know for sure I'll be damned.

Seungri looks at me, ambivalent. "Wow.. This is.. a lot to digest.." He shakes his head, a small smile played on his lips. "I can't believe we're actually having this kind of conversation." He laughs a bit. "I want to pretend I didn't hear all of it and hope I'm not just going crazy."

"You're not. Believe me, you're not." I assure him. Somehow I'm worried about his sanity. I hope this wouldn't affect him that much. I can feel him being torn inside, this is too much for him to take.

"You told me you're being punished. Why?" He suddenly went serious and fixed his gaze at me.

I swallow hard and couldn't speak. I don't think I could tell him that information yet. I remain silent for awhile and just look at his eyes. I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to remember what happened before.

"I.. I can't tell you.." I muttered. Seungri looks at me with creased eyebrows and was about to ask why but I cut him off. "I'm sorry but I just can't.." I tell him apolegetically. I realized I couldn't tell him everything and felt bad seeing him looked hurt. He thinks I don't trust him that much. I reach for his hand. "I'm just not ready to talk about it yet. But in time I'll tell you.. That's a promise." I smile at him. My heart was relieved when he smiled back. He held my hand.

"I'm sorry about how I reacted awhile ago." Seungri tells me. "All the information you just told me, it's.. It still isn't sinking in that much to me.. But.." He squeezes my hand. "Nothing changes, Jinn.."

I breathed deeply. I didn't expect what he just said. "S-Seungri.."

"I don't care if you're an angel, or an alien, or whatever you might be. For me you'll always be Jinnie. The girl that I want. The girl that I adore. And I promise to stay with you always. I will take care of you.."

My throat went dry all of a sudden and I find it difficult to utter even a single word. "But I told you I'll leave--"

Seungri placed a finger on my lips to stop me from speaking and gave me a warm smile. "Let's just enjoy whatever it is we're having right now until then and not think of anything else." He tells me. "I don't want to think of anything else and just be with you."

I bit my lip and felt hot in my cheeks. My heart feels like it's about to burst and I cry. Deep inside I'm happy, but I'm also pained and scared and troubled. How long will we live like this? I will soon meet my fate. I only have his words. That's the only thing I can hold onto.

I nod my head in response. If only all of this would stay forever.

A/N:
Annyeong! It's New Years Eve. :) For those who already read this chapter the first time I posted it I did some editing, so I suggest you read it again before moving on. The first draft lacks info about Jinnie's real identity so I added up more information since in the previous chapter she told Seungri she'll tell everything so here it is. :) If you have questions or concerns you can ask me. I made a research about this but if you're still confused just comment your thoughts and opinions.

Anyway, enjoy the holiday! Another year shall pass, hope all of you will have a blast! ;)

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