Sinning like a saint // BJA

[26] Tell us

One week later

"I'm gonna fucking strangle him." I bluntly grunted with my hands up, mimicking strangling someone as I laid on Mike's bedroom floor. Tre laughed lightly as I carried on. Before Mike gently moved my arms back down with his leg, since he was sat on the end of his bed near me. I looked at him confused. "What?"

"You can't strangle Billie,"

"I bloody well can!"

"And you have no clue why he's not talking to you again?" Tre questioned.

"Literally not one! I don't know what I've even done! He doesn't give me reasons for anything anymore,"

"Did anything happen in New Jersey that could've made things like this?" He asked.

I looked at Tre realising. And they both realised I realised something.

"What?"

"Shit." I cursed sitting up.

"What? What happened in New Jersey?"

"Ahhh shit!" I repeated resting my head in my hands. "I can't even tell you guys,"

"What?" Mike asked confused. "Why can't you?"

"Yeah, we're your best friends,"

"I know you guys are and it's not that I don't trust you but I don't know if I'm aloud to tell you because-" Mike cut me off almost instantly once I said I didn't know if I was able.

"-You don't know if you're aloud? Of course you're aloud? You're not gonna be killed if you do,"

"Well yeah. I won't be, but I basically might as well be,"

"That's depressing..." Tre muttered before Mike asked why.

"Because I don't wanna lose Billie. And yes whatever Tre it sounds depressing but I've already sorta been losing him when I think about it haven't I?" I asked... slowly looking at the both of them. They both realised I was asking their opinions and shook their heads fast.

"What no!"

"Not at all!"

"Yeah... but. There was that long amount of time where he wouldn't look at me, we've been falling out recently, now he's doing this again. But this is worse, he's never been like this. Now he won't talk to me, which I've dealt with. He won't look at me, which I've dealt with. But he won't even be in the same room as me? He won't sit with us at the cafeteria anymore, only Ella. He even moved tables in art away from us Mike it's never been this bad. I've lost part of him and I don't know why, but I don't wanna do something that could make me lose the rest,"

"I don't understand what you could've done in New Jersey that would've made things this bad, he was fine when you came over though,"

"I know that. But he went to speak with Ella and then he just- he stopped talking to me. It's like... one moment he knew me and... the next, he didn't,"

~

"That's mine Tre give it back!" I whined trying to grab my chocolate bar from his hand. He was taller, which meant it was just purely out of my reach.

"No,"

"Tre!"

"It's mine now,"

"Tre!"

Mike walked past Tre before grabbing it out of his hand, Tre turned around confused as Mike tossed it over to me.

I caught it before thanking him, taking my seat back down at the dinner table and opening it up. Tre sat back down too and so did Mike, Charlie was already sat watching us all bicker. And that was it.