Disconnect || Lee Minhyuk

[ t h i r t y - o n e ]

Jung Soo Yi

minhyuk and i walked side by side each other until we finally reached the empty playground where we last hung out together.

"do you wanna sit on the swings again?" minhyuk asked.

i smiled and shook my head.

"no, i think i just wanna sit on that bench." i pointed to minhyuk and walked towards it, leading us both.

i took a seat first and minhyuk followed, taking the small space beside me. we sat down quietly for a few moments, hearing the soft cricket sounds in the background.

"you see, i don't really know how to spend the rest of the night with you on valentine's." i spoke, my voice getting smaller.

"it's okay. just stay still beside me." minhyuk answered without turning his head to see me.

i decided to face front and observe our surroundings quietly. i was confused as to why minhyuk had to follow me around when he could just go home instead. i just thought i was no fun to be with unlike jooheon who would agree to go on an adventure with him at this time.

"do you really have nothing you wanted to do? you know i'm no fun." i asked minhyuk.

he finally turned to look at me, and at that moment, i saw him swallow hard before thinking about it.

"i didn't prepare or think about anything we could do at this time too. i was actually being literal about us spending some more time together... even if we're just sitting together like this." he admitted.

"ah..." i nodded, looking away.

i was holding my breath a bit, and i could already feel my heart pounding inside my chest. minhyuk was actually implying that he just wanted my sole presence even if i didn't have to do anything else.

he wanted to be with me after school on valentine's day. isn't that what couples do?

heol... this isn't a date isn't it?

at this rate, i'm gonna get things mistaken. why is minhyuk doing this to my mind? to me?

"did you enjoy today's academy day?" minhyuk suddenly asked.

"huh? oh.. uhm yeah, i did." i nodded.

"when shownu sang and gave you that rose... your heart raced, didn't it?"

i gazed at minhyuk's face for a moment. his eyes were staring back into my soul. i wanted to tell him that i did appreciate what shownu did, but if only he knew, i thought that having him this close to me is making my heart race more for some reason.

"i was alright, but i did feel a bit flustered because all eyes were on us. i'm glad that the person i've always admired is already noticing me like that, too. i can't deny that it's also a great feeling, right?" i pressed my lips together and looked down, smiling.

minhyuk took a moment of silence to think before responding to me.

"actually, when shownu sang that song... i felt a bit disappointed." minhyuk suddenly confessed.

i lifted my head up and turned to see his face immediately.

"that song? baek yerin's song?"

"mhm." minhyuk nodded, turning to look at me.

"and i also felt jealous, soo yi-ah."

"why?" i slowly tilted my head a bit.

minhyuk was actually talking about his feelings. now i don't understand why a part of me is suddenly being hopeful.