Disconnect || Lee Minhyuk

[ t h i r t y - f i v e ]

Lee Minhyuk

i took a cab and finally arrived at the destination. the moment i got out, jisoo was out in the convenience store.

"jisoo-yah!" i called.

she was all alone crying with two empty bottles of soju on her table. i knew jisoo, she didn't like soju nor drank it at all. something must be wrong for her to go to this extent.

"hey, what's wrong?" i bent down to jisoo's level and put my hands on both her arms.

she looked at me with red swollen eyes and dried tears. i could tell she was tired from all the crying. how long has she been out here?

"i'm sorry, minhyuk-ah..." she started to cry once again.

"what are you saying?" i shook her slightly.

"it's all over for me. i can't go to school and face the other students anymore. i'm so ashamed of myself, i messed up." jisoo started being vulnerable.

"hey, take it easy... just please tell me what happened." i pleaded her.

"my life has been going downhill ever since i went out with moonbin. i'm so sorry for ditching you minhyuk-ah, i really am. just please take me back.. can't i be the one you love again?" she cried.

i looked at her, feeling sorry that i already knew i couldn't give her what she wanted. at that moment, i knew where my heart was. soo yi already had it in her hands.

my heart was for her.

i looked at her face, just keeping my silence. i didn't know what to say because of what she was asking from me.

"moonbin has already broken up with me weeks ago. i barely talked about it to save my face. you know me, i'm the arrogant one... i should be the one breaking up with him, and yet i got this. you knew that i liked getting my way and you probably hated me for it. but most of all, i felt like you were the only one who could understand." she spoke.

"minhyuk, please. don't you feel anything for me anymore? how could you move on? you can't... you just can't. i was holding onto you.." she hit my chest lightly.

the truth is, i was aware that you don't stop loving someone you did before. there will always be a place in your heart for them and a little care you give. however, it's clear to me who my present is for. soo yi was the girl i wanted to pursue and she was driving me crazy.

"jisoo-yah... i could be here for you, but i hope you understand that things aren't the same as they used to be before. my heart has changed and i've already made it known to you. i'm sticking by that because i know how i really like jung soo yi." i explained.

jisoo listened attentively but it was clear how disappointed she was. i didn't want to make her to feel worse than she already did, but i didn't want her to get the wrong idea with me as well. i needed to set clear boundaries for me to avoid leading her on.

"i could help you with whatever's bothering you. but while i do so, i hope you know that i have a girl i already like... i want you to respect and understand that." i spoke.

"are you courting her?" she asked.

i pressed my lips together and slowly brought my head down.

"too bad, i heard shownu was already pursuing her. i wonder just what exactly you're going to do with those feelings now. jung soo yi must really be that girl, huh? she even got shownu.."

"it's alright, i gotta do what i gotta do. besides, who cares if it's shownu i'm going against with? no matter if it's shownu, dj h.one, or even cha eunwoo himself who suddenly comes to pursue her, i'll still stand tall and do my best to win her heart." i spoke, determination slowly rising back up my chest.