Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust

chapter 9

CHAPTER 9

HOLLY’S P.O.V

AHH! Above expectations performance?! Did Jason just melemparkan balik my words at the café back to my face? Did that 0 out of 10 rating hurt Captain Playboy?

Tapi dia bilang saya masi virgin!

Should I believe him? Hmmm… saya tidak sempat look at the bedsheet oh tadi pagi sebab bila kami balik to his hotel room, housekeeping sudah bersihkan the room and changed the sheets… so saya tidak tau ada blood ka tidak on the sheets…

Tidakkan saya mau find out if I’m a virgin dengan making love to Jason? Bukan ka buduh begitu? Bagus-bagus masi virgin, sia-sia mau try test jadi unvirgin… and I’m not going to the hospital or clinic! Bikin malu saja mau check tonton kalau sudah kuyak ka tidak….

“give me my phone…” saya bilang sama Jason… wah, macam Queen oh kau, Holly… hahaha!

Jason mencapai for the paper bag yang jatuh di lantai masa dia grab me and lay me on the bed… he took out my handphone dari the paper bag and passed it to me…

“are you calling the police?” dia tanya saya with a hint of a smile…

“kenapa pula mau call police?” berkerut dahi saya…. hurmmm...

“mana tau kau mau report saya rogol kau, then kena bawa to the hospital to check…” dia bilang… pandailah otak kau sana, Jason!

“eee... sudahlah kasi bingung otak saya…!” migraine oh saya oleh dia ni…

Walaupun handsome yang membuat jantung saya berdebar-debar, tapi perangai buat saya macam mau gila…

I took my phone from him, and click on google…. Saya google search all the key words… hmm... let's see... 🤨

‘what does it feel losing your viginity?’
‘how it feels having sex the first time?’
‘does it hurt after having sex the first time?’

And guess what? Nothing eased my thoughts… tiada satu pun jawapan yang memberikan saya confidence that I’m still a virgin…

Ada ka patut ada ni website cakap ‘not everyone bleeds’? then ada lagi ‘it won’t hurt if you are well lubricated’

Jadi, pendek kata, bukan semua orang berdarah bila having sex buat pertama kali, dan… kalau banyak air atau pelincir, walaupun kau virgin tidak juga berapa sakit… what the hell? Tidak membantu oh!  

SOMEONE IS LAUGHING NEAR MY EAR! 😳

Saya terlampau concentrate membaca those articles about losing my virginity, baru saya tersedar Jason sedang berlimpang di sebelah saya, sama-sama membaca my google search results and articles… Termerah terus muka saya!

He took my handphone from my hands, saya mau grip handphone saya pun tidak sempat… then he typed something on google search…

Dia typed…
‘Je…’ semua jenis JE keluar!!!

And he clicked on….
‘je t'aime meaning in English…’ NO!!!

No! No! No!

Saya mau rebut handphone saya… tapi dia lebih cepat and kuat….

“I love you?” dia tengok saya and senyum gete…

“Meh…” saya kasi senget mulut saya, cover malu… hahaha! This time saya mau rebut handphone saya, dia bagi saja saya…

Then dia pusing memiring memandang saya, satu tangan supporting kepala dia….
“research says it only takes one look to fall in love with someone, and it’s love at first sight…”