CHAPTER 36
JASON’S P.O.V
“Méiguānxì, mummy xiànzài zài tiāntáng…” dad saying, ‘it’s ok, mummy’s now in heaven’…
“Wǒ xiǎngniàn mom…” I miss mom… saya menangis, dalam pelukan dad… Jordan walked up to Bella for support…
“Daddy zhīdào, Jay… Daddy zhīdào…” why is dad so strong? I wish I had dad’s strength…
But most of all, I wish me and Holly have the love that mom and dad had for each other until mom’s very last breath…
saya teramat sangat kesal saya tiada di sisi my mom saat dia menghembuskan nafasnya yang terakhir… sometimes I still have nightmares about it, nightmares about the crash, about how mom left me, left us…
-Flashback-
3 days after I resurrect from the dead & made my debut in KK…. Sempat lagi saya buat lawak…
“You ready, Jay?” Jordan menggenggam erat tangan saya… dad berjalan ke depan duluan… menuruni anak tangga konkrit secara perlahan-perlahan… jantung saya semakin lemah saya terasa…
Tidak pernah terlintas di fikiran saya yang saya akan berada di sebuah tanah perkuburan meratapi makam ibu saya…. Makam saya!
I touched the cold marble surface of mom’s grave… oh God! My heart…
** In Loving Memory of
Jennevie Desmen Choong
27th September 19xx – 31st October 20xx
Sadly missed and always remembered by
Husband: Jackson Alexander Choong
Sons: Jordan Asher Choong, Captain Jason Ashton Choong (D)
Eternal rest, grant unto her O Lord
and let perpetual light shine upon her.
May she rest in peace **
The bitter sweet memories came flooding back to me...
“Jay! Don’t forget your hinopot!” mom always prepared bekal for us to school…
“How’s your day at school today, Jay, Jordy boy?” That’s always her first question inside the car when she picked us up from school…
“You know why mummy always cook so sedap?” kami adik-beradik menggeleng kepala… “because mummy cook full of love…” and mom showered kisses on me and Jordan…
“Do you know who are mummy’s bestfriends?” mom menanya kami sambil tersenyum… “my kids… you are my bestfriends…”
Semua kenangan… kenangan terindah namun menyakitkan sebab orang yang tersangat mengasihi telah pergi buat selamanya...
Saya meraung… I am weak, mom…. I am weak without you… Mom, if we ever meet again in another life, I want to be your son again…
Saya teresak sambil memeluk kubur my mom, seakan sedang memeluk tubuh dia…
“Just cry, Jay…” dad whispered sambil mengusap rambut saya… “let it all out…”
Jordan turut melutut di sebelah saya, menarik tubuh saya yang separuh terlentang atas mom’s grave…
“Mom, I’m sorry…. I’m sorry…” my body’s shaking in Jordan’s arms…
“Mom understands, Jay… she does…” Jordan memeluk saya lebih erat…
I’m sorry for not spending time with you, mom
I’m sorry I didn’t know you were sick…
I’m sorry for not being with you on your dying day…
I’m sorry, mom….
“sshh… Jay… your mummy loved you more than she loved herself… there is nothing to be sorry about, nothing to forgive…” dad mengusap belakang saya… “it’s God’s will…”
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