Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust

chapter 19

CHAPTER 19

JASON’S P.O.V

A club in Jakarta…

Another two nights in Jakarta before I head back home… canggih juga ni club…
Colosseum Club…

Sempat lagi kami berparty ni malam… boleh tahan juga lawa-lawa the Indonesian babes… tapi tidak selawa dia….

Ugh, Jay!

Saya really tried to move on, saya rasa saya separuh berjaya… the pain got less, the tears even lesser… but the memories were haunting… it’s painful that you’ve created the most beautiful memories with someone that is only a memory… 💔

Eventhough Holly deleted our pictures in her IG, I kept mine…. It’s too hard for me click delete… sejujurnya I’m not ready to delete Holly from my life… biarlah saya hanya menatap dan menyayangi dia dari jauh…

Walau saya turn back dan merayu pada Holly, I know she will never forgive me for leaving her… And I will never forgive her for cheating, I will never forget that name, HUDSON… but cheating? Eh, saya confuse dengan diri saya sendiri…

Sampai saya mati pun saya tidak akan lupa that name and that face…. Shit!

Yes, tangisan dan kesakitan slowly faded away… but it only turned into anger and frustration…

now I believe when they say once you fall in love, you fall so hard… tangisan dan kesakitan perlahan-lahan beredar, tapi ia membawa bersama nafsu saya….

Everywhere I go, every club I partied around the world I tried to hook up with some chics to forget that one person, but the girls always end up leaving my hotel room, or I left their hotel room without having sex…

Mula-mula saja ghairah nafsu saya bersama dorang, then bila saya nampak betul-betul wajah all of those girls yang langsung tiada kemiripan dengan cinta hati saya, mati terus nafsu saya…

I wanted to try again tonite dengan embak Indon… tapi ia berakhir dengan pedang, ciss!

Tapi saya guarantee, kalaupun bukan pondan si embak tu, saya tau kami tidak juga akan berakhir di ambang kepuasan nafsu..

I’m 6 months celibated… The last city that I had sex, Paris… the last person that I made love to, ……., yes, her…

Perlahan-lahan, Jason, go slow… calm your heart… you can go through this even if it takes more time…

Sehinggalah….

The liveband decided to mess up with my feelings…. My heart ached so bad…

“Ayo kita berhibur down to memory lane guys!” the female vocalist blasted through the mic…

UGH! Just the intro,  I cringed…

🎵Jangan Ada Dusta Di Antara Kita🎵

🎶Ketika pertama kujumpa denganmu
Bukankah pernah kutanyakan padamu, kasih?🎶

🎶Takkan kecewakah kau pada diriku?
Takkan menyesalkah kau hidup denganku nanti?🎶

🎶Memang kau bukan yang pertama bagiku
Pernah satu hati mengisi hidupku dulu🎶

🎶Dan kini semua kau katakan padaku
Jangan ada dusta di antara kita, kasih🎶

Oh, God! Tiba-tiba bayangan malam tu flashed-back in my head… how Holly looked that night, gorgeous,  her beautiful voice membuatkan saya terpukau…

How I wished we could just go back to that night and just stay like that… betul apa Holly ungkapkan kepada saya that last night we were together…