Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust

chapter 16

CHAPTER 16

JASON'S P.O.V

"cabin crew, prepare for takeoff..."

That was the saddest take off announcement that I've made in my life...

"Tan, you do the next announcement..." I said bitterly...

"roger, capt." Saya dapat nampak Ethan menyilik saya dari ekor mata dia...

Tiada di antara dorang berani bercakap sama saya sejak kejadian at Paris' Charles De-Gaulle airport...

Paris ruined me... I'm leaving the city that emotionally destroyed me...

The city where I found love and lost love in just 7 days... 💔

Saya sangka walking away was as easy as what I used to do... saya biasa meninggalkan wanita-wanita yang sekali atau dua kali saya had sex with them...

And after Holly, saya sangka I can go back to the old me... the old captain playboy, captain Casanova... sangkaan saya meleset... is this karma? karma never knocks on the wrong door, so they say...

The first month after my whirlwind romance with Holly... mengaku bah kau it's a romance kan, Jay, my flights were back to back...

saya ambil banyak international flights, but I never got Paris.... Memang satu kejarangan untuk mendapat the same city banyak kali memandangkan memang ramai pilot in the airline...

Bulan pertama saya patah hati, saya banyak mengurungkan diri dalam bilik hotel... saya menolak setiap ajakan to the clubs...

How did my hibernation ended?

It ended bila saya buka IG... saya rindu, amat... saya rindu Holly.... And when I opened my IG, saya teringat balik that we follow each other on IG and posted a lot of pictures together, terutama dua hari yang terakhir saya di Paris....

Setelah sebulan, I click on Holly's IG and saw a lot of our pictures that she posted sudah tiada... Dia delete semua gambar-gambar kami... saya sakit hati... I know it's selfish of me to feel that way, tapi ya, saya sakit hati and nothing can change how I feel right now...

Yang sungguh menyakitkan hati saya was the tag.... Holly was tagged by @hudsonrhys .... A picture of her sleeping peacefully on her bed... captioned:

'my sleeping beauty, no one's gonna hurt you anymore because I'm here for you, I will shoot every one of them that hurt you'

dan the post adalah pada tarikh sama yang saya terbang away from Paris....

SHIT! Sakit dada saya, saya hampir tidak dapat bernafas... saya melemparkan handphone saya.... Tidak tau terbang ke mana sudah handphone saya... kemarahan yang saya rasa tidak dapat mengatasi kekecewaan hati saya....

I cried...

And I swear, this is going to be the first and last time I cry for a woman... saya terfikir dalam hati, kau mencurangi saya, Hol... but then again, kami tidak pernah made us official... lantak! Saya masih terasa dicurangi!

If you can play this game, I can play it better... saya lebih berpengalaman... 😒

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A Club in NEW YORK, USA

Saya minum all the liquor that I can get my hands on... saya tau saya akan tumbang tidak lama lagi... this time my co-pilot sama juga, Ethan... cabin crew Adam, Yolanda, Gina... and another 3 more cabin crew....

Adam biasanya tidak akan join clubbing sebab dia sangat setia with his wife.... Tapi malam ni berbeza sebab Ethan minta tolong sama-sama jaga saya... hairan juga saya Ethan ni, kenapa juga mau jaga saya?