Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust

chapter 34

CHAPTER 34

HOLLY'S P.O.V

Talking about nafsu serakah.... Ugh, i was bloody fucking frustrated that Jason hold my climax release against me...!

And how dare he! 😡

"Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust..." dia bisik, bibir di leher saya...

"You can keep your love, I prefer lust" saya sambung... saya teringat back in Paris when he said 'life's a bitch and I'm an ass' menyambung my verse of Ashes...

Yes, Jason... kalau kau tidak mau menceraikan saya, saya akan mencari jalan sampai you give up dan ceraikan saya....

In the meantime...

"Hol... please... I love you..." dia merayu... "forgive me..." saya menelan air liur yang perit... forgive? So easy for you to say, not easy for me to do...

"let's not put love on the table... let's just play with lust... that's what you wanted kan? Haha..." saya ketawa tanpa keikhlasan...

"Hol... it's not like that... I prom..." I cut his words...

"Bukannya kita buat dosa pun melempiaskan nafsu kita kan...." He is still hugging me from behind when I turned to him dan merangkulkan leher dia sambil tersenyum gete... "Right, HUSBAND?" the coldness in my eyes and voice sent chills to Jason...

Don't promise me anything, Jason... don't make promises you can't keep...

Saya mendekatkan bibir saya to his ear, and suck his ear lobes...

"fuck me as much as you want, Jay..." I whispered huskily... "you'll only have that chance until our divorce goes through..."

Saya meleraikan rangkulan tangan saya di leher dia and looked into his eyes... dalam sedetik dua, we looked at each penuh dengan rasa cinta...

But that's it... I walked away...

Saya berjalan balik to the dinner table...

"Jay!" Jordan panggil Jason yang ternyata menyusul di belakang saya....

Saya pusing dan memandang wajah Jason yang sayu.... You can be strong, Jay... just believe in yourself like how I believed in myself when you left me... i was strong not only for myself, but also for your son... our son...

Losing me is nothing, when you never even made the effort to have me in the first place...

"yeah?" suram ka suara Jason?

"we owe each other a number kan..." Jordan senyum riang...

"bah..." saja Jason replied...

Jordan berjalan ke arah the mini stage...

"Guitar? Piano?" Jordan tanya...
"Neither... Just mic..." Jason jawab...
"Song?" lagi Jordan tanya...

"I miss mom..." hmmm... baru saya sedar, cuma ada Jason's dad yang dia perkenalkan awal tadi...

"Mom's favourite song?" I heard Jordan asked Jason, mata Jordan pun menjadi sayu....

Kenapa ni adik-beradik ni? Tiba-tiba kedua-dua dorang menjadi sayu...

Jason mengangguk saja terhadap pertanyaan Jordan...

"Which one?" Jordan tanya...

"the only song mom understands..." Jason replied, Jordan mengangguk tanda faham...

Jordan berdiri depan the screen and search for the dub on Youtube...

And the song's melodic intro filled up the air... I was surprised, very surprised...