Mind - Jin || Completed

Ch47

Graduation day was only a few weeks away and everyone was studying for finals. I'm already prepared for finals so I've just been relaxing and helping the the guys study. Since finals are coming up, we haven't been able to do our usual basketball court hang out. But they still make an effort to check up on me and make sure that I am doing okay. 

I still haven't heard from Jin. I'm not crying as much as I used to but after talking to my dad a couple weeks ago, my heart has started to heal. But I still don't have the strength to unblock Jin's number to wait and see if he gives me a better explanation. Any time I thought about Jin, the whole day would go by and I would have gotten nothing done. So I made sure to keep myself busy. 

"Noona, can you help me with this problem?" Jungkook asked.

I stood up from my chair and looked over at Jungkook's notes. I explained to him how to approach the problem and after several minutes he understood and thanked me. I sat back down on my chair and continued to look through my phone. 

"I can't believe that finals are next week and we're here in detention." Hoseok pouted. 

"Well we did ditch school that one day so we're making up for it now." Jimin said. He looked over at me. "It was worth it though."

I smiled at him. 

We studied for the first part of the morning and when it was time for lunch, the teacher gave us an option to go off campus for lunch as long we come back. The teacher threatened us that if even one of us don't come back, those of us that are graduating will not walk down on graduation. That was enough motivation to make sure we come back. 

We walked over to a fast food restaurant and ordered burger and fries. When we got our food we sat in a round table and started eating. 

"So do you guys have your speeches ready?" Yoongi asked. 

"I'm still working on mine, y/n has written most of it though." Jimin said chuckling. 

I chuckled. "Everything else he's smart at but making speeches? Not really his thing." Jimin nudged me and laughed. "I finished mine already," I paused. "I actually wrote it the day after my dad and I talked."

"Does it have any connection?" Taehyung asked.

"Kind of. Once that lane started clearing up it opened my mind and everything just came together. I can't wait for you to hear it."

"Jungkook and I will be the loudest ones, cheering for all of you." Taehyung said. 

"You better cheer for me the loudest, babe." Yoongi said playfully pinching him.

"Ow! Don't worry babe, I'll be loud for you that night." he said winking at him.

We all groaned out in a teasing disgust and Yoongi sat there blushing. Taehyung giggled and kissed Yoongi's cheek before resting on his shoulder. Yoongi snapped out of his embarrassment and sweetly smiled at Taehyung. That was the look of love. I'm super happy for them but I couldn't help but think about when Jin used to look at me like that. 

"Y/n," Jimin quietly said. "Are you okay?"

I gave him a reassuring smile. "I'm fine. Just seeing them made me think about Jin a little bit. Don't worry though, I'll be okay."

He smiled at me. "Okay."

After we were done eating we headed back to campus and went back to class. We put our stuff away while waiting for the teacher to come back in the room.

"Miss y/n," the teacher said when she walked in the room, turning my attention to her. "Headmaster Lee wants to see you."

The guys looked at me and I was just as confused as they were. I don't know what my dad is doing here on a Saturday. I grabbed my bag and headed over to the office. 

I greeted the front desk lady and made my way to his office. I lightly knocked on his door waiting for him to tell me to come in. 

I opened the door. "Hey dad,"

"Hey, come sit down." he said. 

I closed the door and sat down on the chair across from him. "What are you doing here on a Saturday?"

"I have a lot of paperwork to do. I have to make sure all of these files are sent out to the colleges that the students are going to. Speaking of," he ruffled through his pile and pulled a folder out with my name on it. "I have your scholarship approval in here."

"Oh," I took the folder and opened it. "Thanks, dad." This was the letter that pretty much started it all. He took away my chance from going to the university I wanted. Jin found a way to get me into the school without my dad's recommendation letter. I ended up seeing Jin as another person and I ended up falling for him...only for him to break my heart. I looked down, playing with the paper. 

"Are you still thinking about him?" my dad asked. 

"Yeah," I softly said. "This just reminded me of him, he was the one that helped get me the scholarship."

"Well now that this scholarship is finalized and you're going to have the extra money I gave you then--"

"Are you asking for you money back?" I asked interrupting him.

"No!" He exhaled and smiled. "You deserve every penny that I'm giving you. I was going to say that if you wanted to use the money for anything that doesn't have to do with school, like a vacation or somewhere else to live, you can use it for that."

"Seriously?" My dad nodded and I smiled. "Thank you. I really appreciate it. After my tuition has been paid for I'll see how much is left and decide what I can do with it."

"Okay," he paused and his face turned sad. "Have you talked to him yet?"

"No. I still haven't even unblocked his number. I haven't cried a lot like I did, but I don't have it in me to do it. What do you think I should do?"

He cleared his throat feeling choked up. "Y-you're asking for my advice?" I slowly nodded my head. He cracked a smile but tried to hide it, not making it about him. "I...think...you should think about what is worth making your future bright. If you think that hearing him out, or having closure with him will help you move on, you should unblock his number and see if he's still trying to make contact with you. If he does and there's an explanation, you can hear him out. If there isn't anything, then you can close that part of your life and start to really move on. I don't want you to think 'what if', like me. I always think what our life would have been like if I never left you and your mom. It still eats at me everyday but all I can do now is take it day by day and progress forward."

I deeply sighed out and took out my phone. "Do you mind if I do it in here?" He shook his head. I scrolled to Jin's number and I was hesitant to push the unblock button. 

I took another deep breath and unblocked his number. My thumb ran over his name on my phone and I sniffled, trying not to cry. I put the phone away in my pocket, and all I could do now was wait. My hopes weren't that high, since it's been a month since we broke up. If I never hear from him again...

My thoughts were interrupted when the door to the office was suddenly swung open. 

"Sir, I'm in love with your daughter!"