Mind - Jin || Completed

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I sat down in the chair sitting across from my dad's desk and I crossed my arms. He sat in his chair and looked at me, giving me a sad smile. The awkward silence filling the room was not helping any of our situations. All I could hear was him nervously tapping his finger on the desk. I was nice enough to hear my dad out even though I just wanted to be alone, but him not talking was making me more irritable than I already was. 

"So.." my dad asked trailing off. "How are you?"

I scoffed and rolled my eyes. "That's a stupid question."

"Right." he cleared his throat. "I'm sorry."

"Can we just skip all the pleasantries and go to what you need to talk to me about?"

"Well," he started. "I really want to apologize for what has happened over the last couple months. Your mom told me that you and Jin decided not to break up, even though I told you to."

"I told you this at the hospital, you don't have the right to tell me what to do. You lost that when you decided to leave me and mom."

"How long are you going to keep holding that over me." he said quietly. "I've tried so hard to be a part of your life for years and you wanted no part of it. I accepted it because I knew how much I hurt you. But I was hoping that one day you would find it in your heart to forgive me and let go of the past."

"Dad," I looked at him with a serious face. "You knew that I was in the process of forgiving you. Ever since I found Jin, my whole perspective on life has changed. He's shown me what it's like to care about someone despite their faults. He had the courage to tell me of his condition and I didn't look at him any different. I thought maybe I should try give you the same chance. You trying to tell me what to do, especially when it came to my relationships, you had no right to do. You took two steps forward and then you took a million steps back." 

He sighed out and closed his mouth into a thin line. "I know what I did was uncalled for. When you left the hospital that night I was prepared to never see you again. After all of that anger and adrenaline had gone away, all I felt was sadness. I felt sad thinking that I would never see my daughter again. I have been on the fence about you seeing Jin but after talking to your mom and understanding more about when she went through it, I knew I had to be more open minded. One day when you're older you're going to meet people who are years older than you, and that friendship or relationship is going to be normal." he paused and looked at me, I could see a shine in his eyes, noticing that he was holding back tears. "I guess I've been trying so hard to make up for all of these years that it made me so blind that you're not the little girl I left behind. You've grown up to be an independent and strong person, and you're capable of making your own decisions. I want to be there to support you, no matter what you want to do, or who you want to see. So..if you want to be with Jin, I won't stop you."

This has been a long conversation coming. I spent almost my whole life avoiding my dad but that was because we both needed to grow. He has spent all of this time trying to force me to associate with him again but now he realizes that he needed to give me time. Now that he's actually trying, it's only going to be a process from here on out.

I slightly smiled. "Okay. We can try this again." Like a big weight was lifted off of him, he smiled wide and sighed out in relief. "But as far as me and Jin," my smiled faded. "He broke up with me. I don't know what I did, or maybe it was the time apart, but he ended things with us."

He reached over and held my hand. "I'm really sorry, y/n. Is there anything I can do?"

I gave him a sad smile and shook my head. "I don't think there's anything you can do dad. I don't even have the strength to call him and find out exactly why he broke up with me. After he broke up with me I had to block his number so I wouldn't be tempted. All I can do now is heal from it," I sniffled, holding back tears. "I really loved him, dad...I thought he was the one for me. I don't know how long it'll take for me to recover from this."

"Well like I said earlier, you're strong. You can get through anything."

I was getting a message from Jimin asking where I was. I guess I've been gone for too long that they're starting to worry. After telling my dad that I needed to get back to the basketball court, he gathered his things so he could leave for the day as well. He walked me over to the court where the rest of the guys noticed us. They stopped playing and just stared, confused and shocked of what was going on. I said bye to my dad and he walked to his car. 

I sat down on the blanket and the rest of the guys came running to me. 

"Y/n, are you okay? I didn't think I would see you walking with your dad." Jimin said.

I half-smiled, probably bigger than they have seen for the last couple weeks. "Yeah, I'm fine. I ran into him and we ended up talking about everything. Things are good between us now. I'm very hopeful about it."

"That's good, y/n." Taehyung said. "We're really happy to be seeing you smile like this."

So much has been weighing on me for such a long time that when I felt like I was finally starting to get my life back on track, my body felt lighter. My heart felt more at ease. Turns out everything that has broken me, there were some that was able to be fixed.

"Me too."