Mind - Jin || Completed

Ch19

Jin POV

"How do you know." I asked Jimin in a serious tone. 

"I didn't know it was you, actually." Jimin looked at me. "It was a theory when I returned the bottle to you, but proven by the way you reacted when you saw it."

"O-oh." I nervously rubbed the back of my head. I sighed out and closed my eyes. "Yeah...I'm bipolar."

I opened my eyes to look at Jimin and I couldn't figure out his expression. 

Jimin sighed out and nodded his head. "Okay. You have bipolar."

"How did you know from my medication it's for bipolar though?"

"I'm declaring psychology as my major when I go to college. I've already started doing research on different types of disorders and the medications to suppress them." he pointed to my bag that held my pill bottle. "When I read your medication I remember reading it from bipolar disorder."

"Alright, you know my secret. Can I trust you not to tell anyone?"

"Hmm." Jimin thought. "Only if you tell me one thing."

"What?"

"Is it bad?"

I looked down at my desk feeling ashamed. The only people that know about this are Rachel and Aiden. The whole incident that started all of this was so long ago I was hoping to put it behind me. But these bottles and my slip ups are my constant reminder.

I deeply sighed. I motioned my hand to the desk in front of mine for Jimin to sit in and I sat in my chair. "I was a senior in high school and I was dating this girl. Let's just say her dad never approved of me."

"Was he overprotective of his daughter?"

"Yeah, too overprotective. Jenny and I were in love and we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. After the night of our prom, we were going to elope. Jenny felt bad about not telling her parents and secretly told them she was getting married in hopes that her dad would finally approve,"

"So what happened?"

"She kept trying to stall the wedding and I kept asking her why. Eventually she told me about telling her parents and...it's like something in me snapped. I suddenly became very obsessive and I was practically rushing her down the aisle before her parents got there. After we got married I was going to take her away to somewhere nice where we wouldn't have to worry about them anymore. She didn't want that..."

Jimin leaned forward in his desk as his eyes gradually became bigger. "So what did you do?"

"I...I grabbed her wrist, hard. Then I was practically pulling her down the aisle and she started to resist. She kept saying I was hurting her but I wasn't listening." I put my head down into my hands and leaned my elbows on the table. "At that moment I felt my hands start to shake and my heartbeat racing. I was hyperventilating and it felt like my whole body was boiling with anger. Jenny tried to calm me down and told me she loves me but she realized she wanted to get married the right way. Her parents arrived soon after and her dad had some words for me,"

"What did he say?"

"He told me that I would never be enough for his daughter. He didn't care that even if we get married he would never approve. Each time he put me down, that fueled my anger." I paused, feeling more ashamed to tell what happens next.

Jimin got up from his seat and leaned against it. He gave me a sad smile. "If you don't want to tell me the rest, you don't have to. I can kind of guess what happened."

"No." I said. "I'll tell you the rest. Maybe if I talk to you about this it'll give me the courage to finally see a therapist. I've been holding it off since all of this happened."