Mind - Jin || Completed

Ch43

"Y/n, are you okay?" Jimin asked me. 

I was deep in thought when Jimin brought me back to reality. We were in a boba shop waiting for the rest of the guys. I took a sip of my drink and softly smiled at him. "I'm okay, why do you ask?"

"I'm worried about you. It's been almost a month since you've seen Mr.Kim and you're surprisingly okay. You're smiling everyday, other than the occasional day dreaming. I thought you would be a lot more sad."

I raised one eyebrow at him. "Do you want me to be sad?"

"N-no!" He nervously chuckled. "That's not what I meant. I just meant you seem pretty okay with everything that's going on."

"I have to be, Jimin. If I think about the bad things that Jin and I are going through then yes, I will be sad. I don't want to be sad. When he feels that he is feeling a lot better, he'll come back." I paused. "I know he will."

Ever since that unfortunate night I have been missing Jin like crazy. I miss being able to see and hold him. I haven't heard from him since that day either but I figured that he's been too busy getting his life back on track. He said he would contact me when he can and I believe him. Jimin and the rest of the guys have been distracting me, making sure that I'm not alone so I don't get lost in my thoughts. I thought after that night I would lose my friends, but they have been so supportive. I'll never forget that day. 

It was the day after prom and I woke up in my bed feeling...content. I don't know what the next few weeks will be like but I had to be hopeful. I had cried so much from last night I couldn't even cry myself to sleep. When I left Jin's house, I didn't want to go home. I wanted time to freeze so I could stay with him as long as possible. I tossed and turned in my bed until exhaustion overcame me. 

I looked at my phone and there were so many messages coming from the guys this morning asking if I'm doing okay and if there's anything they can do. I won't be able to stay in my bed or I fear my thoughts will consume me. I texted in our group chat saying that we should meet on the basketball court. I got ready for the day and headed to the court, waiting for them. 

One by one they all showed up, worry in their looks. I waited until everyone showed up so I could explain everything at once. When Hoseok was the last to arrive I sighed out, trying to get the courage to start talking. 

"Y/n, whatever it is, we're here for you." Jungkook said. The rest of the guys nodded their heads in agreement. 

Jimin put his hand over mind and smiled at me, assuring me that it'll be okay. I smiled back and started talking. "So about last night. I'm really sorry you guys had to see that and find out everything that way. Jimin was the only one who knew my secret about Jin and I dating. I didn't hide it from you because I don't trust you, it's because we wanted as little people to know as possible. He has been going through a lot, as you might know, he has anger problems because of his bipolar," I paused when I started to choke up. "That's why you saw Headmaster Lee...my father, unconscious and beaten. He somehow found out about Jin and I, and he tried to break us up. He ended up triggering Jin and that's why Jin started beating him up. Fortunately, my dad won't press charges on him but only if I stop seeing him. My dad and I don't have the greatest relationship which is why I kept him a secret, not even Jimin knew. He can't tell me what to do so when he forbade me from seeing Jin again, I couldn't be around him. He'll recover from his injuries but I can't be there for him, especially when he can't be there for me. I'm sorry I kept this all of this a secret and if you don't want to be my friend anymore...I understand."

When I finished talking I looked around me, reading their expressions. 

"Y/n," Jungkook started. "What did I say right before you started talking?"

"Um, whatever it is, you're here for me?"

"Yeah," Taehyung said sniffling. "We're sorry that you have been going through all of this alone. It just confirms how strong you are."

Yoongi put his arm around Taehyung to comfort him. "Yeah, y/n. We're always going to be here for you."

I smiled feeling a tear fall down on my cheek. "I love you guys."

We all came together for a group hug. After talking for some time and letting them know what the next few weeks are going to be like, they made it their goal to make sure I stay happy while Jin is recovering. I wanted things to be as normal as they used to be so after talking, they got their stuff ready so they could play. 

I sat on the bench like I usually do and I deeply sighed out in relief. I looked over in Taehyung and Yoongi's direction and they looked lovey-dovey with each other. 

"I'll be right here." Taehyung said. Yoongi kissed his cheek and headed to the court. Taehyung sat down next to me and I could see the stupid smile on his face. 

"So, how are things between you two?" I asked. 

"Well," he smiled and giggled. "We wanted to tell you last night but because of what happened we didn't feel like it was the right time. But...Yoongi told me how he feels. He said that when he goes to college he doesn't want to think about what it will be like to be without me. He said he wants this to be official. So he's officially my boyfriend."

I squealed and hugged Taehyung from the side. "Oh my god, I'm so happy for you two!" 

Everyone else showed up and we spent the afternoon in the shop, talking and ordering more boba. 

"So graduation is coming up soon. Are you guys excited?" Jungkook asked. 

We all nodded and smiled. "I'm surprised my dad is still letting me say my speech."

"Have you talked to him?" Jimin asked. 

I sulked in my seat. "No. He's been back at school for a week now and he hasn't made any contact with me. I only get updates about him from my mom. She says he's doing fine and wishes things could be different. I think maybe giving me this speech is his way of making sure he doesn't take everything away from me."

"Do you think you'll talk to him again?" 

I thought about it. "I don't know. It really all depends what happens next. Hopefully Jin will be feeling better by my graduation so he can be there, and I can show my dad how much he has changed and hopefully he will accept us being together."

"How is Mr.Kim, by the way?" Namjoon asked.

"I don't know." I pouted and took a sip of my drink. "I haven't heard from him since that night. He said it might be hard for him to make contact with me but I was hoping I would have heard from him by now. I want to know that he's making  progress and that he's doing okay."

"Well have you tried messaging him?"

"I would but I don't want to be the one to distract him. Plus since he's staying with Ms.Day and her husband, I don't want them finding out about us if they accidentally see his messages."

"I'm sure he's fine." Jimin reassured to me. "If he's anything like you, he's strong."

I smiled. "Thanks, Jiminie."

When we finished the last of our drinks, we called it a day and I headed back home. I laid in my bed with Jams while I thought about Jin. Talking about him a little extra today really made me miss him more. I thought about if I should message him, thinking what the harm could be. 

"I'm sure he's the only one looking at his phone." I took my phone out and started messaging him.

Me: Hey, Jin. I'm just checking up on you. I know we said we should lessen the time we talk to each other so you can focus on getting better but I just want to know that you're doing okay. Hope to hear from you. And I love you.

I put my phone down thinking I wouldn't be getting a message anytime soon. But as soon as I stood up from my bed to go outside, my phone went off. I looked and I already got a message back from Jin. I smiled widely finally hearing from him. But that smile faltered when I read the message, and it felt like my heart was torn into a million pieces. 

Jin: I'm fine. But I won't get better if I have you around. I'm breaking up with you.