Avoid or Love?
"Hell nice very nice tell me? Hindi na ba ako?!" Cheska shouted because of frustration and jealousy.
"What are you saying Cheska? Ikaw ang Mahal ko ikaw ang gusto ko.." I tried to convince her. Swear I am telling the truth.
"You're saying those words, you're saying that you love me but your actions are doing the opposite!"
"Cheska listen.kasalanan ko kung bakit nanyari 'yon kay Chalvea it is because of Kylie that pervert and psycho girl from my past.."
"I know you didn't loved Kylie and I'm fine with that, but you know why am I acting like this a jealous Girlfriend for the past few days that I came back here? It is because whenever I see how you treat Chalvea I feel like you're into her, that you're already falling for her and I am scared.." she uttered and this time I can see some tears from her eyes I wipe it using my thumb saka ko siya niyakap.
"Hindi kita iiwan okay? I love you" I promised her as I pressed my lips into her.
"I am scared that after you say I love you next will be Goodbye, But I'll be holding on with that promise, but you should also promise me that you'll keep it. Prove me that promises are not meant to be broken."
"I will Baby.." I muterred and then I kissed her slowly.
"If you really love me close that deal and ignore her existence forever" saad niya na siyang ikinatigil ko there's something inside my heart that teared apart and I don't know what it is.
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Chalvea's Point of View
Isang hindi typical na umaga para sa katulad kong maraming problema bago ako bumangon nagdasal muna ako hindi ko 'yon makakalimutan kahit kailan. Thanks to Dave at inalagaan niya ako I also added him to my prayers. I prayed for his safety. Nagtaka ako bakit kulay black na ang pintuan ng kwarto ko? Mint green siya dati.
I tried remenisce what happened yesterday and then the whole scenario flashed back on my mind. Sinira ni Dave ang pintuan dahil hindi ko siya pinagbuksan o sinagot man lang. Bakit niya ginawa 'yon? He's just concerned and besides it is also his fault dahil sa ex niyang patay na patay pa rin sa kaniya baliw na baliw pa.
Ako din naman ang may kasalanan nito eh ginusto ko ito, pumayag ako sa deal pumayag ako sa pagpapanggap. I've already risk my life because of that deal. It's Saturday, Sunday na bukas and then Monday will came hindi pa rin nakukumpleto ang 200,000 na kakailanganin ko. May naipon rin ako idagdag mo na rin ang ipinautang sa akin ni Lanie hindi totally na wala akong naipon.
I have 50,000 on my secret volt charot alkansiya lang 'yon. 'yong 50,000 pinaghirapan ko 'yon nang hindi pa ako natanggap sa kompanya ni Dave araw Gabi akong nagtatrabaho, waitress, part time singer, yeah I love singing, kusinera sa isang karinderya marunog din akong magluto pero dahil daw masarap ang adobo ko which is my specialty kinuha ako ng may-ari. Naging maid din ako baby sitter pero hindi ako stay in. Naging Janitress din ako sa isang agency. Naging Carwash girl at doon ko na na-meet si Dave.
Nagmamadali ako kasi nang nililinisan ko 'yong kotse niya mala-late na kasi ako sa Gig ko kaya binilisan ko ang pagkilos hindi ko naman inexpect na masyadong sensitive ang kotse niya hindi ko na napansin 'yon dahil tumakbo na ako sa bar kung saan magaganap ang Gig ko.
I learned a lot. I became an Independent woman. I learnt how to treasure every centavo that they're giving me. The incentives I grab them just for me to have money to survive siguro ito 'yong gusto ng mga magulang ko na matutunan ko. And I am very thankful siguro kung hindi nila ginawa 'yon sa akin forever ng pariwara ang buhay ko baka nga nagbebenta na ako ngayon ng shabu o di kaya may sampu na akong anak.
