Different Thoughts [ WEEKLYCHRIS | CHRIS COLLINS ]

Chap 18.

[ Chris' POV ]

I turned down Dan's offer to drive with him and mom to their house. I got a text from her, like half an hour ago, asking me where I was. I told her that I had to run a few errands, but I'm just nervous to see Anna, really. I have to be on good terms with her or this whole plan will be for nothing. Jack flipped out when I called and told him about this mess with Anna and her dad and he told me that he would kill me if I fucked it up now.

I grab my phone from the kitchen counter after pacing through every room in our house, trying to remember the things Ryan told me before I moved here.

Besides from being a part of the gang, he's also my best friend. He's like a brother to me and he's the only one who can look right through me and my lies. And I tend to lie a lot.

It's hard at times, but it's just one of the sacrifices you have to make when you're living this lifestyle. 

"You should keep your emotions off and try not to fall for her. You will regret it, bro" is one of the things Ryan repeatedly told me. Like hell, of course I'm not going to fall for that stupid brown haired girl. I don't do love. I don't do emotions.

Another one of the sacrifices I had to make. 

"Chris?" I hear a familiar voice. I turn around, greeted by two sad eyes. Jessica appears to be a happy girl, always giggling and stuff, so this is a rare sight. She's the only one, besides the gang, who knows about the plan. And she wasn't too thrilled when I told her.

She was actually the one who introduced me to the gang in LA and the sketchy lifestyle, but I was too far in already when I told her about the business. She had noticed I started gaining a lot of money suddenly and since she was dating Jack, the leader and all, I had to tell her. 

"Hey Jes, whatcha doing here?" I ask her and put a hand on her shoulder, squeezing it softly. She's the only girl I can stand.

"You should tell her," she goes straight to the point. "About the plan. Before it's too late and you fall for her."

I raise my eyebrows, feeling a little bit disappointed that she'd say that. "You know that I don't break promises. Especially to the guys. And I don't love, I thought you knew me better than that?"

Jessica opens her mouth to say something, probably an insult, but to my surprise she doesn't. She just looks at me with those fucking puppy dog eyes and sighs. "I'm not saying that you will fall for her, but the girl actually likes you from what I heard from her sister. And you could just ask her about her grandfather, you know. Tell her everything. Why do you have to hurt her first?"

I roll my eyes and exclaim, overreacting on purpose. "Because it's fun!" No, it's not. I just keep on lying to myself.

"You could just save her the tears and the heartbreak and just ask her about her family's hideout. I don't know why Ryan and you are making such a big deal out of this," she sighs, clearly not wanting to mention Jack's name. I know she loved him and he was acting like a lovesick puppy all the time, so the feeling had to be mutual. I know she still loves him, even if they've cut off all contact. 

"You know me, Jes," a wicked smile breaks my pokerface. "I break people for fun." I roll my eyes when she scoffs and I know for sure she's going to lecture me. 

"No, you don't. That was the past. You've changed, for the better. Believe it or not, Anna has changed you. You're calm, you don't get in much fights. You like her. You might not say it out loud, but you like her. You like her presence, you like being around her. You might be fooling Ryan and Jack, but I can see it. So man up and fucking tell her about your lifestyle and what you want with her. It's not too late yet."

And maybe she's right for once. Maybe.

[ Anna's POV ]

"He's here!" I scream, while scanning the text Chris just sent me. Chanel's head shoots up and Jane drops the bag of doritos, before sprinting out of my room, down the stairs. Luckily for us, dad and Jasmine left to discuss some stuff about their jobs and her apartment, so we're all alone tonight.

"Jane, come on! Wait for us!" I yell, knowing she'll overreact and annoy him even further.

"I guess it's too late," Chanel sighs when we hear a high pitched voice scream curse words.

We rush down the stairs, seeing Jane pointing her finger in Chris' chest as Chris holds his hands up in surrender. He takes small, almost unnoticeable steps backwards.

"You could just text her, call her, tweet her, FUCKING MAIL HER BUT YOU DIDN'T DO SHIT," Jane screams. Shit, she's surely overreacting.

I know she wants the best for me, after all the crap with Jason happened, but she has to know that this is not her fight to fight. Yes, I'm very happy I had a friend to support me when Jason cheated on me, but Chris is not like that.

"I already said tha-," Chris tries to say something, but gets cut off by Jane.

"I care about my girl, alright and I know what you're doing," Jane narrows her eyes at him, still poking her finger in his chest.

"Jane, I think that's enough," Chanel says and pulls her back by her shoulders. "Anna is capable of doing this on her own. We should leave."

I mouth her a 'thank you' and Chanel smiles in reply, before pushing Jane out of the house.

I turn my head back to look at Chris as I hear him sigh, "Uhm thanks... Your friend is pretty scary when she's angry." He chuckles and scratches his neck, looking down at the floor.

"Why did you tell me that you would take me to school, but you didn't? It could have prevented me from waiting for you when you weren't even going to show up, heh," I chuckle sarcastically and muster a fake smile. I can sense that he's uncomfortable and I'm actually enjoying this, since he's the one who's put together most of the time and I'm the awkward and uncomfortable one.

I look around and sigh when I realize he isn't going to answer me.

"You know what? Why do I keep trying.... Trying to make you to open up to me? I'm just done, sorry. I'm just tired and this whole thing with our parents moving in together is stressing me out," I roll my neck and turn around to walk towards the staircase, but Chris gets ahold of my arm. "Please stop. Just... go unpack or something," I whisper, not wanting a fight and shake my head. I expected an apology, but all I get is silence. Okay then, he's too proud to apologize.

"No," I hear a stern voice and I get whirled around. I try to say something, but get shoved in Chris' hard chest as I feel his arms wrap around me.

"Please don't be mad?" he whispers into my hair, making me melt in his arms.

[ AUTHOR'S NOTE ]

Holy frick, I started watching The Vampire Diaries this weekend and can I say that I'm freaking in love with it. I watched the first season in 1 weekend this isn't healthy.

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