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how long had it been since taehyung went to see his mom? two hours? he was still in the study room, sitting on the floor against the locked door. he had been crying, overwhelmed by the information that would set him apart from jeongguk. he didn't want to lose him again, but he knew hiding this truth would result in nothing but flames.
taehyung knows he can't hide forever, so he builds enough courage to stand up and walk out of the room, ignoring the notifications popping up on the computer one after the other with the label confidential.
before he takes his first step up, yoongi pulls him to the side, a concerned look on his face as he scans taehyung. "everything ok?" yoongi asks quietly, as if not wanting to be heard.
taehyung murmurs a quick yes, though it sounds nothing assuring. "yoongi-ah, i can't talk right now. i need to do something really important, later ok?" taehyung ignores yoongi.
"there's something. . ." taehyung has already raced up the stairs. yoongi frowns, "something weird going on here."
taehyung has to get to their room now. or else the small courage he has built up would diminish any second. he halts at the door, hand circling around the doorknob. he lets out a breath, and opens the door. jeongguk is sitting down on the bed, a book in hand, eyes busy scanning the pages.
when taehyung closes the door behind him and locks it, he finally looks at him. there's a peaceful look on his face, eyes big and round and a small smile that glosses over his lips at the sight of taehyung. "hey, how'd it go? took a while," he chuckles, closing the book and rolling out of the bed.
the older gulps, forcing the tiniest smile possible. "uh," he was already losing his voice, "yeah. she talked about, about. . . she's glad we're fine. and i told her, about us."
"oh, that's great tae. she's fine with it right?" jeongguk approaches him, and taehyung finds it very hard to not back away.
taehyung nods.
and then the awaited questions finally lets the vibe drop.
"what did she say about jiun?"
taehyung stares at him, mouth agape, throat dry. jeongguk sees it, he sees it right away and his heart drops.
"you're going to hate me forever this time," taehyung says, voice breaking as tears stream down his face.
jeongguk knows now. his suspicions have been confirmed. he purses his lips and nods, looking away for a second before looking back at taehyung. "so it was your dad. i saw his picture and it came back, it all came back."
"jeongguk, i didn't know. i-i- i'm sorry," taehyung steps forward, trying to reach out for jeongguk.
the raven steps back, and it's not to avoid taehyung's touch, though the latter takes it that way and it breaks his heart even more. jeongguk turns around, covering his face with his hands and letting out a shaky laugh. "jeongguk?"
he whips around and stares at taehyung. "i need some time taehyung. i know you have nothing to do with it, but please let me have some time ok? that's all i ask for."
he grabs him by the waist and pulls him close, taehyung doesn't hesitate to wrap his arms around his neck, letting jeongguk nuzzle his nose into his neck. "is this the last hug for a while?" taehyung asks, running his fingers through jeongguk's long hair.
jeongguk pulls back and shakes his head, grabbing taehyung's face and pulling him in for a kiss, sloppy and wet but it was so reassuring. that they were fine. "i need time not space tae," he brushes back taehyung's hair and wipes away his tears, "i need you now, more than ever. i need you to help me, to heal me. i've been so lost these past years, so blinded by something that i had no control over, and i took it out on you. the last person that deserved it. i don't think i can ever repair the damage i caused you taehyung. it hurts knowing that my sister is dead because of your dad, i wish this whole thing would've been different. i hate that it took a literal zombie fucking apocalypse for me to realize all of this. i want to take you out and show you off, i want to kiss you, and hug you, travel the entire world until we've seen every corner. . ." jeongguk takes a deep breath and his face turns a bright shade of red, "i want to hold you in my arms, every morning and night, when i make love to you. i just need to know if you're willing to accept me like this. damaged and not perfect."
taehyung nods frantically, sobbing out as he holds jeongguk closer, "i do, i do."
they both cry, holding onto each other. they both need to heal, on their own accord, but together.
"i love you kim," jeongguk breathes out, "i love you so much."
taehyung cries harder, laying his head on jeongguk's chest. is there ever a right time to tell someone you love them?
before taehyung can utter the next three words back, there's rapid knocking on the door, and then duck cries out for taehyung. jeongguk and him share a look.
a/n i think we can take a break from angst and prepare for some,,, um,, im sorry :(
