TRINITY (Completed) (2020 Ver.)

Chapter 26

Chapter 26

Vareen's Point of View

"What did I do this time?" I heard Raze groaned kaya napamulat ako ng mata. Last night wasn't fun at all. After the hot kisses we shared at bigla siyang nakatulog sa ibabaw ko. Mabuti na lang at hindi natuloy ang hindi dapat mangyari.

"Vareen, shit." Napabalikwas siya ng bangon ng makita niya ako. Umiwas siya ng tingin at mariin na napapikit. "What happened last night? What did we do? Fuck! I thought I was just hallucinating!" he asked still not looking at me.

"We just kissed." I honestly told him. So, he really thought I was not me. Hindi pa rin maalis sa isip ko ang lahat ng sinabi niya kagabi.

"A-are you sure? Bakit w-wala akong damit?" He nervously asked.

"I cleaned your mess up, you're a mess." Bumangon ako and I let the blanket fall to the floor, revealing him my naked body.

"Kung halik lang nangyari sa atin, then why are you naked? Did we.. ugh? Did we?" he asked with so much confusion. Umiling lang ako at kinuha ko ang phone ko, shit.

34 missed calls from Jayce and Oliver, at may isang naligaw from Jaira. I read their texts, nakarating na daw sila sa Marinduque and they missed me agad. I replied to their texts at tsaka umaling ulit kay Raze.

"You ripped off all of my clothes, you dimwit." Itinuro ko ang mga nagkalat na punit kong damit sa lapag. He bit his lower lip and his face flushed red. Kumuha ako ng robes sa CR, binato ko sa kanya yung isa at isinuot ko yung isa.

"Let's talk." I told him. Tumango siya at tumayo, hindi ko maiwasang titigan ang katawan niya. I'm drooling. Well sculpted body, those broad chest and ripped six pack abs, damn. Napako ang tingin ko sa ibaba niya, if I'm not mistaken, kasing size niya lang din yung dalawa.

Napalunok ako.

"Done checking my body out? Damn, Vareen. I'm still mad at you." Naglakad siya papunta ng CR, akmang isasara na niya iyon ng pinigilan ko siya.

"D-do you mind if I join y-you?" nauutal kong tanong sa kanya. He smirked. "You can take the shower, I'll be on the tub," dagdag ko.

"Maybe we should just shower together, just shower." I agreed on that at tsaka pumasok sa shower room. I let the cold-water flow to our bodies, I felt his hands around my waist. "I've been dying to hold you like this... I wish you were mine." Mas lalo siyang lumapit sa akin and I felt his kisses on my nape. "Paano ka ba magiging akin?" He slightly turned me around and pushed me on the wall.

"R-raze..." Namamaos kong banggit sa pangalan niya. Kung kagabi ay halos lumabas na ang puso ko sa sobrang bilis ng tibok nito, ngayon ay mas lalong kumakabog, I can hear it more kaysa sa lagaslas ng tubig, ramdam kong malapit na 'tong kumawala sa katawan ko. Last night, he was drunk. Sober na siya ngayon. I stared at his eyes, it's full of longing and... love?

Umiwas siya ng tingin sa akin na siya namang pagkabig sa mukha niya papalapit sa akin para mahalikan siya. At first he was in a state of shock, but he easily gave in and kissed me deeper. After that kiss ay lumayo siya at natawa.

"Vareen... sinasaktan mo lang ako lalo." Kinuha niya ang sabon and he started cleaning himself, naiwan pa din akong nakasandal sa wall, nakatulala.

What should I do? I was about to give Raze a chance before, not until the two came, I clearly got blinded with lust and their actions and I nearly forgot about Raze. I don't know how will I deal with my life anymore.

Naa-attached na ako sa dalawang magbestfriend.

I can still remember my notes sa bucket list ko, hindi ako pwedeng ma-attach sa mga nakakasex ko, each men only deserve a one time deal, hindi na pwedeng maulit, lalo na kung nacheckan na yung nasa list.

But I broke those!

I can't just resist their bodies. Palagi kong rason.

"Raze, I'm sorry... I'm going to make it up to you, babawi ako." Hinawakan ko siya sa kamay at tinignan siya sa mata. "Please, hayaan mo akong bumawi sa'yo."

"Of course may oras ka sa akin ngayon kasi wala yung dalawa, paano naman ulit ako kung nandiyan na sila?" He intently asked, napayuko ako. Inagaw ko na lang sa kaniya yung sabon at tsaka ako naman ang nagwash.

"If you want to make it up to me, dapat tayong dalawa lang, wala ng iba. Ayaw ko ng may kahati, sa'yo, sa atensyon mo... s-sa katawan mo. I-I already knew, that moment you kissed me back on Aihira's wedding, I know there's something, pero fuck! Dumating sila. Sinubukan kong ibaling sa iba itong nararamdaman ko, pero ikaw pa din. Iisipin ko na talaga na ginayuma mo ako eh." He turned off the shower and lifted my chin up. "Can you please just say something? Eto na nag-uusap na tayo."

"Alam mo bang sinabihan ako ng dalawang 'yon na layuan ka? But I never did!"

"They... what?" Doon na ako nakapagsalita, hindi ko alam 'yon. I guess they didn't tell me the whole story. Sa pagkakaalam ko ay nakabungguan lang nila noon si Raze sa firm, 'yon ang kinuwento nila, maybe 'yun yung time na sinabihan nila si Raze.

"Yes, Vareen. Pero hindi ako lumayo, until... you gave me a reason to." Hindi ko maiwasang mainis, hindi ko na alam kung kanino maniniwala. "You know me, ayaw kong nasasaktan ka. When I saw you happy with them, hinayaan na kita."

"Hindi mo alam yung naramdaman ko nung hindi mo na ako kinausap, yes, I am happy with them. Happy nga ako, broken ka naman. I can't stand that Raze, I was hurt thinking and imagining things that might happen to you. Hindi kita mahagilap, you started ignoring me! I even set an appointment to you na in-ignore mo lang! You even changed your phone number! How am I supposed to contact you! Akala mo ba ikaw lang nasasaktan, ako din!" Lumuluha na sabi ko sa kanya na agad ko ding pinunasan. Kinuha niya yung robe niya and he wore it.

"Huwag mo muna akong paasahin ngayon, okay? You don't even know what are you feeling right now. Clarify your feelings, first. Ayaw ko nang umasa ulit, lalo na sa wala."

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