Breaking Free From Envy

Kabanata 53

Sef's POV

"Close your eyes..." That's what I told her before she fell unconscious in my arms. She's so thin that's why she's a paperweight. I know she saw that spirit too in the hallway before the entrance of the comfort rooms.

"You can proceed to your room, Josef." Utos ng School Principal sa akin. Napabaling tuloy ako ng tingin mula sa babaeng payatot na natutulog sa clinic bed patungo sa kanya. She looks fragile. I don't know but everytime I see her, I have this desire to protect and save her from harm. 

Pero umalis ako that night without even talking to her. I don't have plans on talking to her but I wanted to at least be with her while she's asleep.

I always noticed her being alone. I can see the sadness in her eyes no matter how she smiles and laugh with our classmates. I wonder why is she faking it. And those envious stares she gave to those girls in our batch who got things she doesn't have. Like true friends, a happy and supportive family, and siblings whom she can count on.

 Lagi akong napapatingin sa kanya. Like I wanted to ask if she's okay. Or even take away that sadness in her eyes. Hindi bagay sa magaganda niyang mga mata. She's like a lost angel. So, my instinct told me to guide her.

Ang mga encounters namin, nasundan nang nasundan. I know she struggles in our Algebra class. Hindi ako yong tipong nagpapakopya. But when she asked me what is x + x,  damn! I can't seem to ignore her. Nakita ko siyang nakapikit at parang nagdarasal.

No matter how you prayed in a test, kung hindi ka nagreview... wala kang makukuha. I wanted to tell her that. Pero, naunahan ako ng awa. 

Awa? Really, Sef? kastigo ko sa sarili. I don't even care kung may ma-zero sa Math test namin. Pero siguro malakas siya kay Lord. Narinig yong dasal niya. That through me she will be able to pass it.

Ang hirap niyang tanggihan lalo na noong tumingin siya sa akin with her puppy eyes. Sinabayan pa niya ng "Please?"

"Kopyahin mo na lang, ang ingay mo." I whisphered. Wala akong time i-discuss sa kanya ang mga tanong niya. Ang lakas ng loob ko gayong si Sir Gamunggo ang instructor namin. I might get kick out sa subject niya once he sees me letting her copy my answers.

I don't know but she's kinda cute. Not too mesmerizing. She got beautiful natural black curls na lagpas- balikat. She has these Indian features. Matangos ang ilong, malalim ang kulay-tsokolateng mata, long eyelashes, not so perfect eyebrows but it made her look more mature than those girls her age, and thin pinkish lips. 

'Yon lang. Flat boobs, pre. 

She's a bit taller compare sa mga kaklase naming babae. Kaya tuloy tinutukso siyang "pader or kawayan." What a cute "pader" and a pretty "kawayan" she is. I appreciate her.