𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓹 𝓲𝓽 | Tōru Oikawa x Reader

Fate

You pull yourself away from Kageyama. "Tobio, we can't do this. If we cross this line..." The thoughts of your friendship makes you scared. You don't know what will happen. You valued your friendship with Kageyama. These sexual frustrations can damage your years of bond easily. "I'm scared too Y/N. I'm scared you'll run towards another guy who doesn't deserve you." Kageyama envelopes you in his arms. "Why can't you see me more than a friend?"

Closing your eyes, you allow him to embrace you. "You can't say that Tobio. I don't have the answer to your question." Your voice muffles into his chest. He wears a deep frown, tightening his hold on you.

"Do I need to turn into a bad boy for you?"

You scoff at Kageyama's ideas, shaking your head. "You're perfect the way you are Tobio. Don't change who you are for me." You gently push Kageyama away from you. Your eyes stare at his melancholy expression. "It's late, you have classes in the morning right?" You change the topic, whispering to him. Kageyama slowly nods his head, reluctantly pulling his arms away from you. You grab hold of his hand, standing the two of you up from the front entrance. Dragging Kageyama behind you, you open his bedroom door and push him inside. "I'll be gone before you wake up. Get some sleep."

You reach over for the doorknob but Kageyama stops you. He pulls you into his room. "Sleep with me tonight."

Your body stiffens from Kageyama's words. "Are you trying to manipulate me Tobio? Because if you are, I'm going to smack you."

"Not in a sexual way. Just be by my side. Like when we were kids." Kageyama pulls you towards his bed, sitting you down. A sigh leaves your lips, your fingers ruffling your hair. "I don't understand you Tobio. One moment you tell me to not treat you like a kid and the next you want us to revert back to our youth."

"I was confused with my emotions." Kageyama sits beside you. "Now you know how I feel, so there's no need for me to push you away." You press your lips together, tired of thinking tonight. "Fine." You take off your coat and walk over to his desk chair and settle your coat down. "Don't be upset if you wake up to see I'm gone." Kageyama follows Y/N's gaze and sees her lay down on the right side of his bed. His heart quickens and he's surprised how easily Y/N gave in. You reach for his wrist and tug lightly. "Lay down and go to sleep." You mumble, exhaustion consuming your body. Kageyama lays down, pulling the blankets up. You hide half of your face with his blanket, the smell of lavender lulling you to sleep.

The sound of Kageyama's heartbeat pounds in his eardrums, his breathing staggering when he sees Y/N's tired face in his bed. Slowly, he extends his arm out and pulls her against his chest. Kageyama rests his chin on the top of Y/N's head and he hears her grumble. Despite your grumbling, you place an arm around Kageyama. His warmth gave you comfort and a feeling of safety. A different warmth you receive from Oikawa. A tingle of sadness fills your heart. Your love for Kageyama is different than the one he feels towards you. He's obviously the perfect boyfriend but your heart doesn't ache for him.

A frown forms on your face and you tighten your hold on Kageyama.

You're constantly hurting Kageyama no matter what you say or do and it shatters your heart.