𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓹 𝓲𝓽 | Tōru Oikawa x Reader

I love you's.

You silently walk next to Kageyama towards the outer part of the shrine. "A lot happened these past few months, haven't they?" Kageyama speaks up, he slows down to look up at the sky. You slow your steps to match his, glancing over at Kageyama. Even now, he's forcing a smile on his face.

"Yeah...and here we are, starting a new year." You whisper, turning your eyes up to the sky. A tense silence fills the lack of conversation between you two.

Now that Kageyama is here, you're tongue tied.

You didn't know where to start or what to say to him.

Kageyama exhales, his hands clenching tightly on his jacket. "There were a few times when I wished I didn't drag you along with me that day. The day where you met Oikawa." You clam up when you hear Kageyama speak up. Kageyama's eyes lower down to the ground and he wears a pained smile. "If I never did, maybe things would be different between us. Maybe you would return my feelings." The feeling of guilt washes over you while you quietly listen to Kageyama speak.

"When you told me the other night that you and Oikawa are a couple...I felt like I was having a nightmare. I kept telling myself that it couldn't be true. But then, I saw the photos Oikawa posted." Kageyama forces his eyes shut, he bites his bottom lip. "This darkness loomed over me and I didn't want to admit to the facts. I tried to trick myself that this is all just a prank against me. But the longer I stared at those images...I realized how beautiful your smile is towards him. You looked genuinely happy in front of him." Kageyama slowly opens his eyes and looks over at you.

"I haven't seen you smile like that in awhile...and I'm upset that I'm not the one to bring out that smile in you Y/N." You watch Kageyama try to force a smile but it never appears. "Seeing how he treated you earlier made it even clearer how much he cares and loves you. Despite how much I hate the guy and how I won't forgive him for his past behavior, Oikawa gave me the chance to speak to you like this. That's very manly of him." Kageyama grimaces a bit at the thought of Oikawa.

Hearing Kageyama finish his out pour, you nervously step closer to Kageyama. Timidly, you wrap Kageyama into a hug.

"I know apologizing won't mend your heart Tobio." You bite your lower lip, feeling the tears form in the corner of your eyes. "But I put a lot of thought about everything before taking the next step with Tōru. I debated whether or not to just ignore my feelings so our friendship will be like normal. But I know that won't happen. I hurt you several times and I'm sure this one hurts you the most." Your hold on Kageyama tightens.

"I selfishly followed my heart which in turn broke yours. As much as I want us to remain close friends, I know that's impossible with the way things are right now. Life doesn't revolve around what I want. But..." Raising your head away from Kageyama's chest, you peer up at him with tears streaming down your face. "You'll always be my best friend and no one can take that place from you. I hope someone will return your feelings someday. You're an amazing person Tobio. I don't understand how you put up with me these past 20 years."

"Because I love you Y/N. That's why I put up with you." Kageyama weakly replies, his thumb brushes away your tears. You only cry more when you see the tears that trickle down Kageyama's face. The tightness in your chest doesn't go away when you cry into Kageyama's chest, his arms carefully envelope you in a hug.

"I'm sorry Tobio..." You continue to mutter the same sentence over and over between sobs. Kageyama silently holds onto you, his body trembling in your arms. You're unsure how much time passes with the two of you embracing each other.

"I should let you go back to Oikawa. He's probably worried." Kageyama whispers beside your ear. You feel Kageyama's warmth leave you when he pulls away, a look of sadness in his eyes. His fingers gingerly tuck your stray hairs behind your ear. Kageyama wears a small smile when he looks at you. "Happy New Year Y/N. I'll see you around."

Anxiety litters your body when you hear Kageyama say his farewell. You can only respond with a nod as you watch Kageyama walk away. A single tear falls down your face when Kageyama blends into the crowd. Wiping your cheeks, you turn towards the opposite direction. You walk back towards the shrine and slowly make your way down to the stall strip. Despite not eating anything all morning, you didn't crave anything after your conversation with Kageyama. Your eyes dart around the crowds until you notice a familiar tall framed messy dark brown haired person.

"Tōru." You weakly call out to him, unsure if Oikawa heard you. Oikawa turns around when he hears the small tone of your voice. His eyes quickly notice your redden nose and cheeks. Oikawa wears a half-smile when he looks at you. "You look so cute even when you're sad." Oikawa teases, his arms embrace your small frame. "Did you have a good talk with Kageyama?" Your ears are full of Oikawa's voice. The coldness you felt earlier vanishes from his touch. Nodding your head, you tightly hold onto Oikawa.

"I love you Tōru."

Oikawa tenses from your sudden confession. He pulls away slightly to look at your face. "What did you say?"

"I love you Tōru." You repeat yourself, your lips trembling.

Oikawa softly chuckles, his cheeks turn a shade red. "I love you too Y/N." You lean in to kiss Oikawa, surprising him further. Iwaizumi and Kyōtani stare in disbelief. "Get a room you two!" Iwaizumi hides his blushing face, looking the other way. Kyōtani breaks the two of you apart, extending a mochi between the two of you. Oikawa raises an eyebrow, looking over at Kyōtani.

"Are you sharing your food with us?" Oikawa grabs the mochi from Kyōtani. "I hope you choke on it, Oikawa." Kyōtani smirks, biting into his own mochi. "What the fuck!?" Oikawa reverts back to his playful attitude. He pops the mochi into his mouth and aggressively chews. "I'LL SHOW YOU WHO'S NOT GOING TO CHOKE ON MOCHI." Not a second later, Oikawa starts to cough profusely from the powder.

"Idiot." Kyōtani hides his smile. Iwaizumi and you both hurry to grab a drink for Oikawa. Iwaizumi smiles when he looks over at you. "I'm glad to see Oikawa will have someone else who will baby him when I'm not around."

"B-Baby me?!" Oikawa grabs both cups of water and gulps the cold liquid down. "You can be a baby at times." Iwaizumi says bluntly, walking over to the next stall. Kyōtani nods his head. "You have a childish side, Oikawa."

"NOT YOU TOO." Oikawa looks over at Kyōtani who's smirking. You gently tug on Oikawa's arm, he turns to look at you with furrowed brows. "Are you going to make fun of me too Y/N?!"

"I'll make sure to spoil you like the child like you are Tōru." You whisper, bringing his face down to kiss his lips. You steal his breath away, watching his eyes flutter close and easily melt before you. A smirk forms on your face. "I want to be spoiled right now." Oikawa whines softly, his eyes glazing over with lust. His fingers entangle with yours and he pulls you along. "WE'LL BE GOING NOW IWA-CHAN, KYŌTANI."

The two look up from the stall and watch Oikawa and Y/N disappear into the crowd.

"Those lovebirds." Iwaizumi chuckles.

"Iwaizumi buy me that yakitori please." Kyōtani points at the chicken on a stick that's grilling in front of them.

"Ugh..." Iwaizumi shakes his head.