𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓹 𝓲𝓽 | Tōru Oikawa x Reader

If it's her, I'll be patient.

Kageyama falls asleep not long after his crying. You walk over to the sofa and drape a blanket over him. Squatting down, your fingers gently stroke his hair to the side. "I'm sorry Tobio." You whisper to his sleeping face. A weak smile falls off your face and you grab your coat to get some fresh air. You're careful to close the door as quietly as possible. The chilly air nips your bare legs, your coat not long enough to cover you. The sigh you release forms a clear air cloud from the cold. You stare out towards the several street lights and honking cars. Alone with your thoughts, you're weighed down by guilt. Kageyama having feelings for you is a perfect love story like the ones you see in movies. A childhood friend falling in love, becoming a couple, and living their lives together.

Everything about that seems like something you ached for.

But the reality is -- your heart.

Your heart didn't waver the same way towards Kageyama. You only see him as a best friend and you couldn't see anything more than that.

You dig your fingernails into your palms, replacing the anxiety you feel with pain.

Should you not pursue whatever your feelings are of Oikawa to protect your friendship with Kageyama?

"No." You quickly rid of the thought. The damage is already done. Kageyama is already heartbroken. You just have to expect the sudden need for personal space from Kageyama. Changing your thought process, you think about Oikawa.

The two of you started off on the wrong foot. Your first meeting turned into a one night stand and then things went out of control after that. The two of you had trouble keeping your lips and hands off each other. Lust being the driving factor to your relationship. But within the course of a few weeks, Oikawa's changed his ways. You're only hesitant that Oikawa will revert back to his usual behavior once his phase of getting your attention is complete. You're not willing to have your heartbroken again. Kageyama wouldn't be there for you to run to.

Admitting to these feelings is a game of chance.

Do you chance into admitting your feelings for potential love?

Your friendship with Kageyama is also on the line. You doubt your friendship will go back to how things are.

Frustrated, you hide your face in your palms. You can only cry at a time like this.

Why did things have to come to this?

🏐･ﾟﾟ･｡.

The next morning you wake up earlier than usual. Kageyama is still asleep on the sofa and you leave him a hangover drink with a note attached. Your eyes gaze at his sleeping face, your heart strings aching. Walking out of the door, you leave behind an extra key hidden in your flower pot by your door for Kageyama. Inhaling the crisp morning air, you make your way to school. During your walk there, you stop at the sports shop you looked at yesterday with Oikawa. One of the employees notice you as they unlock the front door.