Save Me

14

           

I didn't go home. I stormed out the room and up the stairs. I just had been humiliated by the baby daddy. My mind was a mess every thought everywhere making absolutely no sense at all.

I stopped when I came to the door. There was nothing significant about it. It was just the same as every other door along this corridor but I remember it, it was different. I twisted the knob gently, thinking it was locked but to my surprise it wasn't, pushing the door back it welcomed me to the room, it was just as I had left it. It was left exactly the same way I had rearranged it. The room wasn't big it was almost box size rectangular room right in front of me was the double glazed doors that led to the small balcony that was useless, it's off white walls and large coloured beanbags one in every corner. We spent hours here just hanging out. A simple almost boring room to the unknown but at the far end where the wall went in that had a small pad which as most knew connected to the surround speakers but also was a key pad, accessible by finger print recognition.

I placed my finger on the pad scanning my print. I watched the pad intently as the light turned green accepting my print. The door opened ajar. I stared at it dumbfounded he-he hadn't changed it. Why hadn't he changed it? Why would he do this to me?

I pushed the door open, giving me the view of the room. It was just as I remembered it, massive. It was taken good care of, it wasn't abandoned, the room smelt fresh and not stuffy and dust free. I entered the room to have all memories come flooding back. This wasn't his room. It was ours.  The bed was nicely made, clearly his doing. He did always make the bed even though I was usually the last to get up. The swing was now in the corner we once spent ages on it swinging on the balcony. There was the small corner sofa in the middle facing the TV.

I sat on the lovely sofa, taking off my heels sinking further into it. I missed this place. It was our getaway. I slowly got back up and head to the balcony as cheesy as it sound we spent many nights starring into the dark sky making up constellations. After months of making stuff up he went and took a crash course learning the names of the stars surprising me.

I stepped onto the balcony wall looking over the city. It was beautiful all year round. You couldn't see it now since the sun had officially set but during the day you can see a stretch of fields just going on and not.

"Cara," I froze at the sound of my name. "Please don't jump, don't move. Please, I'm sorry just don't jump." Finn pleaded his voice breaking. "Just-just stand still, don't move I'll help you down."

I was rooted on my spot waiting for him. Did he really think I was going to jump?

"I know things are bad, but it gets better, I swear it will." He said trying to coax me down. "You have so much potential, so many people who love and care for you, your dad, your brother, Michie...me." His hand grabbed a hold of my hand in a death like vice. "Okay, turn around slowly," he said in a gentle soothing manner.

I did as he said, letting him guide me down, he seemed more freaked than I was. Once I was more or less levelled with him his arm went around me as he lifted me up and carried me bridal style into the room and over to the bed and placed me in the centre of it.

A smirked formed on my lips as déjà vu washed over me, remembering the our first time. I looked over to him even stressed he seemed lost in thought as a smile broke through.

"I have to tell them you're fine, they're worried sick." He told me.

"Don't tell them I'm here, please?"

He looked conflicted then nodded and left the room.

Once he was gone, I got off the bed and walked over to the drawers. I was here so often I started to leave my clothing here. I opened the top drawer to find it was filled with my undergarments, I pulled out a bra, no doubt it no longer fit given I went up two cup sizes. The next drawer was full of his boxers. I changed out of my dress and into his tee shirt which now fit snugly against me bump and his boxers were like shorts for me.