05.09.20
Who knew a pain this great even existed?
The hurt is all mental, but it feels so massive.
How can memories hurt so much?
When I was young they assumed I knew everything,
but I wasn't allowed to know anything.
Memories haunting all of my actions,
the flashbacks linger like all my scars
all the old urges come back.
Cutting and starving to feel control.
I never thought I'd be here.
Writing down all these thoughts
connecting with so many different people
my voice, my words, my thoughts,
they stay with my readers for the longest time.
I can't silence my own demons, I hope I can relieve you of yours
I hope I can quieten your raging thoughts
and bring you some peace.
Inspiring you not to give up and to write your own stories.
Carving yourself into someone's memory forever.
You have a voice, don't be afraid to use it,
you can do this, life is hard, but together we can change the ending.
The pain lingers for the longest time
the hurt runs down so deep,
but let's work together, let's help each other grow
let's survive and live in our reader's memories forever.
YOU ARE READING
4. Memories and Feelings That Still Haunt Me
PoetryI've cried too hard for too long as I debated death. Over and over, all I wanted was a quick overdose, a quick way to escape the pain. Until the guilt set it and made me realise, suicide feels too selfish. Instead I turned my sadness into art and my...
