17.10.20
Everything feels so backwards, like life took a complete 180°
everything I used to know isn't right anymore.
It feels so nostalgic, it feels like how it used to,
but it also feels like someone went back and change the past
creating a different reality.
As happy as I am, knowing that things have worked out
there's this feeling I can't brush off.
The more I think about it, the sadder I am.
All the memories I have feel like a fever dream,
I'm doubting everything that ever happened.
I think back, and the further I go, the harder it gets.
I can't believe these are my memories,
they're too sad, too tragic,
like I'm the main character in a young adult novel.
It's so crazy to think that everything turned around,
but I feel like I'm still upside down.
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4. Memories and Feelings That Still Haunt Me
PoetryI've cried too hard for too long as I debated death. Over and over, all I wanted was a quick overdose, a quick way to escape the pain. Until the guilt set it and made me realise, suicide feels too selfish. Instead I turned my sadness into art and my...
