26.09.20
I don't like telling people my problems, it makes me feel so guilty,
like I'm only using them to make myself feel better
or passing on the worry.
If I do break down and start to vent, I guess that means I trust them,
but I'm scared that I'm making it all about me
with no regards to how they feel.
I'm scared that I'll lose all my friends like that.
Talking about my problems feels so self-centered,
I'd rather my friends come to me with their problems.
Even though I'm depressed and want to die,
I hold it all in and try to help others.
I don't want anyone to feel like how I feel
I know I should be helping myself, but it's easier to help others.
I'd rather carry the weight of all their troubles
along with the burden, that's my own problems.
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