4. Memories and Feelings That Still Haunt Me

To The Best Friends And The Best Times I Had

29.01.21

I miss talking to my barista every day.

I miss chilling with the bored King.

I miss being online Just in time.

I miss vibing with the working Owl.

I miss talking about anime with Arc.

And being weird with the pumpkin man.

I miss all this and more.

I'll never forget all the titles I had,

from Queen, to sparkles, to sleep police.

The gangs I was in, with tea and coffee

tinfoil hats and cats.

The memories I made through utter chaos,

from the first people who made me feel welcome,

to the goodbyes I gave after a while.

The firm bonds of friendship that was made.

They were my family.

I knew I could never stay,

we all knew my days were numbered.

I'm the girl from mars, who comes and goes as she pleases,

like a stray cat wandering around.

Through hard times, the memories I have

laughing and crying with them,

will stay with me forever.

These memories will turn into folklore as the years grow older.

I want to remember you all the way we all were together,

never growing up, being crazy and tired,

helping each other when they were down.

You're part of my history, part of who I am.

I want to go back.

I want to be with you,

but I can't.

I have to move forward.

each lonely step is killing me

I miss you all too much.

I'm sorry I left without saying 

Goodbye.