10.10.20
I've been manipulated and abused,
I've been in toxic relationships and gone through Hell.
It's something I want to talk about, but I can't.
It's like I buried it all
and I can't dig it up again.
But it still haunts me in ways I can't explain.
Sometimes I remember things and it makes me sad,
like I don't deserve good, I only deserve bad.
I can't begin to explain why I feel this way.
What's done is done,
I should be okay,
I should, but I'm not.
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4. Memories and Feelings That Still Haunt Me
PoetryI've cried too hard for too long as I debated death. Over and over, all I wanted was a quick overdose, a quick way to escape the pain. Until the guilt set it and made me realise, suicide feels too selfish. Instead I turned my sadness into art and my...
