02.12.20
It feels like everyone around me is moving ahead.
moving towards something, they know what they're doing
And I'm here, standing so still
watching everyone move on.
Seeing them get accepted into amazing schools
I'm happy for them.
But I'm never going to get close to where my sister is now
I really want to try, but the thought of doing that burns me out.
She'll be the one to succeed, she'll be the one everyone's proud of .
I still feel the shame and humiliation of not passing,
it's embarrassing to say that I'm still studying year 11.
If I fail in everything that I do, at least my family will have one daughter to be proud of.
If I pull myself out now, at least I'll be giving her that chance,
the chance to be something wonderful.
I always knew I was the odd Springstein out.
Not even passing high school,
instead I'm pulling a full Jess Mariano.
Pursuing a dream in hopes that it'll make me happy
wishing that everything will work out.
Time to stop pushing myself down,
it's time to make myself proud.
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