Where there is Love (Asahi x Reader)

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"Dad, we need to talk." At those words, my father stopped to look at me. He held my eye then nodded his head. 

"Once Ryu goes to sleep." Since it was only 4:30, we waited. We watched T.V together but there was tension in the air. We didn't say anything to each other. We just sat on the couch and stared blankly at the television. I tried to imagine what to say to my father but I had nothing. Anything I came up with just didn't seem right. Finally, it was 9:00 and my father sent Ryu to shower then to bed. MY father and I stayed on the couch, a terror loomed over us. 

"I miss her." He finally said. I didn't say anything back, knowing he was going to continue. "I miss everything about your mother. She was the light of my life and now she is gone. I would do anything in this world for more time with her. And I am so sad, Y/n. A day hasn't gone by where I have gone to sleep without crying and then woken up and cried some more. I never wanted you guys to see me like that so I work. I haven't been who you have needed me to be and I am so sorry hun." I moved closer to my dad and he wrapped his arms around me. "I am so sorry."

"It's okay, dad I get it. She only died 5 months ago. I never expected you to be one hundred percent. I asked to talk because I feel so guilty. She supported everything I did. She went above and beyond and I took her for granted. I never even said thank you. I just expected her to pick me up from practices and come to my games. If she couldn't come I'd be so upset and I would be even worse if we lost. That game we lost, she wasn't there for the first set. Then we lost the next one. I was so angry, dad. And then she died taking me home. I am sorry I took her from you and Ryu. I am so sorry." By now I was bawling into my father's chest as he held me. He rocked me back and forth like he did when I was young and he kissed the top of my head.

"It was not your fault, don't ever think like that. Your mother would hate to see you like this, consumed with guilt over something you would never be able to control. She left us early but you did not take her from us. You must remember that, hun. You were passionate over something you loved and that's all she ever wanted to see. She wanted to see you grow and become stronger and you did. She was so proud of you and she knew how much you loved her support. You didn't have to say thank you, she knew, we all did." I felt his chest shake beneath me and I knew he was crying too. We stayed like that for the next hour talking about my mother and crying in each other's arms. 

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When my father and I finally said good night, I felt a huge weight lift off of my shoulders. This guilt that I had been carrying could be shared and no longer held me down. I changed into my sleepwear then I remembered what I said to Asahi and pulled out my phone to text him

Y/n:

Hey, I talked to my dad. You up?

Asahi:

Yea, are you ok?

He responded rather quickly.

Y/n:

I'm fine. I want to talk to you though. Can you facetime?

He didn't even respond to the text but I got a call instantly. I quickly put my phone on my desk and grabbed my wireless headphones. I answered and I saw him sitting at his desk, his hair pulled back with a few strands escaping. From what I could see, he wore a black tank top, showing off his arms and had headphones of his own. His room was rather nice looking with a neutral colour scheme of light brown and white.

"Hi, how are you?" I said shyly, smiling at the screen. He returned the smile.

"Hi. I'm good. How are you?"