Problem Solving

Ignorance Is Bliss?

(A week after the last part)

Lana POV

It's been a week since I stayed at hers.

And a week since we've talked.

I hate to admit to myself that I miss her. I haven't even seen her in English either because the teacher has been "kind" to us and not had us stick to the seating plan.

Kind. More like selfish.

Why isn't she talking to me though I wonder... I've been averagely nice towards her.....

well.. have I..?

Fuck knows. I decide to go smoke behind the science block. I'm kind of skipping class right now, only because it's maths though. I don't like to skip classes, I'm not that dumb, I know I'm only here to learn. But if I need to smoke and I have no free time, I'll sure as hell make time.

I light up my cigarette and take a drag. It feels good. I'm not addicted or anything, I just can't go without..

After a couple drags, I hear footsteps nearing.. they're too light to be a guys. A split second before I see her, I catch a glimpse of baby pink.

Of course it's her.

She sees me, her brown eyes locking on me. I realise she's saying something

"Hmm?" I make a noise

"Lighter" she repeats... she sounds so good saying it.. like 'lie-tuh'.. mmh.

"Sure.." I give her mine. It's a cheap and tacky metal one with the American flag on it. She lights up...

this is awkward. I need to test the waters.

"I'm surprised you smoke" I say lightly, her eyes flicker to me and then back away

"I don't" she mumbles, the cigarette between her lips still. She gives me back my lighter

"Seems like you do" I try to carry on the conversation. She doesn't give me anything in return. I just look at her for something.... anything.

"What?" She asks, I make a face.

"Who the fuck are you to talk like this to me?"

"Fuck off Lana" she rolls her eyes calmly.

I'm absolutely.... taken a back. Electra Heart never acts like this.

"That's it? You're just gonna.... gonna.." I struggle, she looks at me expectantly. Wow. She can be just as intimidating as me.

"Are you quite done?" She asks, I shake my head

"Why're you being a... a bitch?" I ask, wanting to kick myself for stuttering. In front of her.

"Just feel like it. I can do it as well as you if not better." She pauses, her mouth open a little. Fuck she's stunning.. "your cigarettes burnt out and you're late to class. You should go"

"Well now I don't want to" I stub out my cigarette and then fold my arms to show I'm not leaving.

"Then stay. See if I'll talk to you" she turns in the other direction and carries on smoking...... why is this so... weirdly hot?

Do I want to be wanted?

"Now I don't want to do that either." I mumble, then pluck up the courage to raise my voice "you suck."

Really Lana? That's the best you can come up with?

Fuck.

She turns to look at me, as confused as I am about how shitty of an 'insult' I delivered.

"I haven't done anything" I say, she nods

"That's right. You haven't done anything.".... she wants me to put in effort? Who the fuck is she to tell me what to do? "You aren't doing anything, so neither am I. I'll see you later" she says

"What?" I find myself asking, some guy comes around the corner. Some guy from the football team.. She gives him that beautiful smile she used to give me..

I don't believe this. She's making me jealous. On purpose. It's not often she does that. It's usually unintentional, and I get all secretly mad that she's talking to someone other than me.

I absolutely hate when I see her talking to her pretty lab partner. I don't know her name but I know her sexuality.. She's bi, single too. And I know that any girl would find Electra pretty, bisexual or otherwise. So it always gets me mad...

Seeing her with a guy, though.. Wow. Salt in the wound.

She's ignoring me... isn't ignorance meant to be bliss? It isn't even bliss when I ignore her, that's just to kinda... keep her going for me.

Ugh. I hate this.

"Whatever. See ya.." I say, walking away. I can still smell her cigarette smoke in the air, it's kind of teasing me because that's as close as I'll probably ever get to her. The only way I'll have her inside me.........

Gross, did I just think that?

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A/N

Lol lana's sexual confusion is inspired by my own