Problem Solving

Too Afraid

Marina's POV

"Okay so our clothes are off.. is this gay?" She asks, I shake my head

"No. I'm British so it doesn't count. And it won't count until you're comfortable with it doing so" I pause "speaking of comfortable.. will you hold me?" I ask, she rolls her eyes at me

"Who do you think you are asking me to cuddle you like that?"

"We're literally naked in my bed, we've done far worse than cuddle." I giggle "and besides, we've done it before"

"We have" she smiles "okay go ahead, but don't push it."

"Wouldn't dream of" I wrap my arms around her and squeeze her tight. It feels good to be naked with her, not necessarily sexually, just in general. She holds me too, pulling me into her

"You're a mess.. finding comfort in me like this" she kisses my head "can't be healthy. I'm pretty fucked"

"I disagree. You've just been through a lot, and so have I. I believe we're in a healing process, and you're quite a large factor of mine."

"And you me, baby.." she trails her long nails around on my back. I move a little so her nails can scratch me.. I kind of like the thought of her hurting me gently, I couldn't explain why though. "I want a cigarette" she sighs

"No you don't, you want to stay in bed with your favourite little British girl" I kiss her cheek

"Maybe you're right.. Where's my second favourite Brit? I'm surprised she didn't walk in on us or anything, that seems like our type of luck"

"No Laf's spending the night at a boys tonight" ..... "oh my god she's losing her virginity some time tonight. I hope it's going good for her"

"Ew why do you keep tabs on your sisters sex life?"

"Why do you have a second favourite Brit? I should be the only Brit you need" I retort brattily, she smirks

"Calm down baby I didn't say you weren't. If I needed your sister like I needed you then I don't think she'd be losing her virginity to a boy right now"

"You need me?" I smile, she rolls her eyes and starts to get up "no no no stay" I hold her tight

"Marina don't..." she stops and laughs "I was joking" she gets comfortable with me again

"Good because I don't want you to leave." I state confidently

"That's fine by me, I hate my place. But at least there I can smoke when I wanna smoke."

"Don't you have your vape with you or something?" I ask, she thinks

"Fuck, it's in my car."

"Then I suppose you won't be getting it" I kiss her shoulder "you aren't allowed to leave"

"You know, I don't remember you being this needy when we first started.... the relationship we have"

"That's because I like you even more now than I did then. And you me, I can tell."

"You can?" She laughs, I narrow my eyes at her "kinda confident of you"

"Well you did just give me head. I don't remember you doing that the night we first kissed." I say sarcastically

"I probably did mentally, but that's beside the point." She makes me smile

"Okay then what is the point? That you're a stone cold bitch that'll go to extreme lengths to prove it?"

"Exactly" she kinda laughs "you know, I found it so hard to let myself enjoy being with you. I don't know what changed in me"

"Sexual interest" I joke, she just kisses my head